What is it that you struggle with?
Depression and anxiety which progressed into anger/rage issues. How long has it been a problem for you?
My problems with depression started with being bullied through school. Primary school continued through high school until one day I felt I had no other option but to fight back. But once I started, I didn’t know how to stop. How does it affect your daily life?
It has since gotten that I can’t just get annoyed or upset as I go from being happy to a full-blown rage in minutes. This of course creates a whole range of issues with interacting with other people; being friends, family relationships etc. I now take medication on a daily basis to keep me calm and have been to counsellors to learn coping techniques. How do other people’s actions or opinions affect you and your condition?
I feel that other people don’t understand the issues I have because all they see is someone fly off the handle for no real reason. I get called a psycho and people tend to be very stand-offish with me once they have witnessed what can happen. I know some people are scared of me - including family and friends - which is a horrible feeling. I feel isolated sometimes by my problems because if I do feel the need to go and seek help, it makes me feel weak and useless. The stigma of being a male is that real men don’t cry or hurt or show feelings. It took a long time for me to even admit that I had a problem and go and seek help about it. I still don’t like letting people know that I have to take meds every day. How do you think people in the community can be better educated about this?
I’m not sure how people can be better educated about it but the stigma associated with asking for help needs to stop. I didn’t know what to do for years and by the time I did find out what to do to get help, it was too late. What started as depression which can be managed and possibly cured has since turned into a problem which has seen me hurt people I love. I’ve ended up in trouble with the law numerous times but thankfully, I have a good amount of support from family and my boss. That helps me but it is still always going to be an issue.