Out of the dark
CHERYL Cole is open to interpretation.
The latest analysis surrounding the pop singer, judge and former WAG ( pictured), is a new song titled Screw You.
It says: ‘‘ From my heart, I must have been too big for you/ So caught up in the love I felt for you/ I burned down, like a flame I held for you . . . I loved you so much but you never gave a f---/ So screw you.’’
Commentators say the angry ode is aimed at her former husband, footballer Ashley Cole, who she divorced after four years of marriage when it was revealed he had affairs with five women.
Cole says the song is not about Ashley, but understands the speculation.
She laughs: ‘‘ I can’t say anything and people over- analyse everything I do.
‘‘ Even things I wear. I wore a pair of jeans once with Xs on them. They said I was sending out a message to X Factor.
‘‘ It’s absolutely insane. I can’t do anything. Whatever they want to make of it, they can make of it.
‘‘ People are going to make that connection. It’s not about [ Ashley]. But people will think that anyway.’’
But Cole said she finds strength in the song and a like- minded cut titled Love Killer.
‘‘ I felt that not only can I relate to it, but it feels empowering to be able to sing these things.
‘‘ They are strong and empowering with a message. It is really important for me to feel those things.’’
Her new album, A Million Lights, is also about finding the confidence to stand alone.
It follows dark times of divorce, a dismissal and a near- death experience.
Two years ago, Cole contracted malaria during a trip to Africa and while in intensive care was given 24 hours to survive.
‘‘ I thought I was going to die,’’ she said.
‘‘ And I thought ‘ if I’m going to die I want to die soon’ because I was in so much pain.’’
Today, Cole says the experience has helped her seek the good things in life. ‘‘ It changed my view,’’ she says. ‘‘ I’ve got a new appreciation for life and how good a position my life is in right now.’’
She is philosophical about her X Factor debacle, on which Cole was invited by creator Simon Cowell to be a judge on the US version of the show only to be sacked after one episode.
Asked what happened, she replies: ‘‘ That’s a good question. That is something you should ask Simon.’’
Cole performed for the Queen as part of the Diamond Jubilee celebrations recently – a long way from where she started.
Ten years ago, she was Cheryl Tweedy, one of five girls in a group called Girls Aloud.
She grew up on a council estate in northern England.
‘‘ It was tough,’’ she says.‘‘ Who would have thought this girl from a council estate would be singing for the Queen?
‘‘ I always wanted to be a performer, to sing and dance.
‘‘ I never gave myself a second option. It’s like a fairytale.’’
A Million Lights is another chapter of the story. It features collaborations with Calvin Harris, Will. I. Am and Alex Da Kid.
‘‘ I feel I’ve come into my own. I feel like I’m fine to be on my own, I know myself as a performer and a woman,’’ she said. A MILLION LIGHTS is out now