THE LAST WORD... it ’ Life is so fragile, I don’t want to miss
WITH AMERICANIDOL JUDGE AND COUNTRY MUSIC STAR KEITH URBAN
“EIGHT years of sobriety has an impact on the way I feel in the world that I didn’t use to. It’s had an incredible effect on my life.
I was scheduled to go to Brooklyn to do two days shooting for American Idol when Nicole’s father died. The loss of Nic’s dad was just a huge, huge … I can’t even describe what that moment was like for our family. I was very, very close to Nic’s dad. It’s very fresh. It’s very recent. You lose a family member and you’re reminded of the brevity of life and the fragility of it and how it can go very, very quickly.
I don’t want to miss any of it – none of it. I don’t want to miss any time with Nic or our family.
I don’t want to feel like I missed any musical things, songs I could’ve written, and all that sort of stuff. I’m just trying to find a balance to it all and enjoy it.
I have a lot of empathy for these guys and girls singing on the other side of the American Idol desk, and I do feel what they’re going through. When I was nine years old, I went on a show called Pot of Gold. Then there was another show called Have a Go, and another called Stairway to the Stars.
For whatever reason, my parents thought they were a good place for me to go to maybe not only hopefully get a leg up career-wise, but also get some advice and feedback, which I certainly did.
I was just thinking this morning, it’s unfortunate I haven’t been able to find any of those performances. Then I thought it may not be unfortunate after all. Maybe it’s a good thing!
I received pretty scathing criticisms in some of the TV shows I did.
I’ve also had every kind of insult and abuse hurled at me on stage (in the past). Some of it verbal, some of it physical – literally, things thrown at me.
Especially growing up in Australia, you play at some really rough places. But it’s where you learn everything. I learned everything playing in clubs and slowly building your way up. None of it threw me off my path at all. I also experienced huge amounts of rejection when I got to Nashville. I was 24 and I really didn’t know anyone. I just showed up because I believed I was supposed to be there.
Someone said to me once, after being there for five years and still nothing really happening: ‘Do you ever think about going home?’ Never. It never occurred to me. I never questioned it because I knew I was in the right place and it would take what it took, and I just stayed the course.
First and foremost, everybody has a calling and we just have to figure out what that is and where it is. If it’s a real calling, I’m of the belief that ... if it’s what you’re meant to do, no one is going to take you off that path.” AMERICAN IDOL THURSDAY AND FRIDAY, 7.30PM, ELEVEN