Terror victim’s anguish over loss of only child
When Sydney mum Jumarie Cadman arrived home after her world was torn apart in the devastation of the Barcelona terror attacks, she could not get through the front door.
Three times, Ms Cadman tried to get into their Lalor Park home, but the absence of her seven-year-old son Julian, who was killed in the barbaric August assault, was too stark.
“My husband had to take me back to hospital twice and I finally managed it the third time, going in through the back garden,” she said.
“The hardest was going into Julian’s playroom, his bedroom; I managed with the help of the hospital’s social worker.”
Ms Cadman, 43, has opened up about the August 17 attack for the first time, telling of her anguish over the loss of her only child in an assault that left her with devastating injuries.
“I don’t sleep, I miss him every hour,” she said.
“I loved being a mum but it’s all gone.”
She and her son were in Barcelona to attend her niece’s wedding for which Julian was to be page boy, while Julian’s dad Andrew Cadman stayed at home.
The pair were on Las Ramblas when Moroccan-born Younes Abouyaaqoub, 22, smashed into the crowds in a van, a cowardly act Islamic State was quick to claim its own.
He killed 13 people and injured 130 more before fleeing. He was shot dead by authorities five days later.
“Summer is coming but I feel there’s nothing to celebrate and I still have the shoes and shirt I bought him in Spain for the wedding,” the wheelchair-bound Ms Cadman said.
“Julian was a blessing, who brought so much joy.
“I just want Julian back, I don’t know why I survived and he didn’t.
“We had such a lovely day and I had bought him a toy torch because he had been such a good boy. When we came out of the shop he was snatched from me. “I just felt his hand go.” Ms Cadman’s cabinet-maker husband Andrew, 42, said: “You can’t rebuild or repair the damage done — we’re still trying to make sense of (it).”
Ms Cadman had extensive surgery to fix her shattered legs and pelvis in Barcelona, returning to Sydney in September and transferring to Westmead.
Julian was laid to rest at Parramatta’s St Patrick’s Cathedral on November 4.
“I want people to know Julian and I are home,” Ms Cadman said.
‘I just want Julian back, I don’t know why I survived and he didn’t.’
Injured Barcelona terror attack victim Jumarie Cadman and son Julian.