You can take control
Hey there, it’s me, Kathy. How was your long weekend? Mine was not too bad either. Remember I was supposed to get my needles in my shoulder and wrist? You’re wondering how it went – well, I was a week early. It’s tomorrow that I have to get it done.
This week isn’t going to be the greatest. I haven’t been feeling so good. My stomach and the pain from my hands and shoulders have me at a pain level of 8.5.
The only time I get relief is when I’m sleeping and then I feel mad at myself for sleeping so much. These are the times when I really can understand when people say they had enough of this, or I can’t take it any more, because you just feel so helpless to the pain.
This is the time when you need to reach out and talk to someone and tell them how you feel. Get them to go to your doctor with you. They will be able to hear what the doctor is telling you to do or get the doctor to write it down. Because of the pain, you may not be hearing everything you are being told to do to relieve it. I always have someone with me ever since I started this fight 14 years ago. It’s good to have someone just even if they are there to be a shoulder to lean on.
You can learn to meditate. You can make your mind work for you, not against you. I send all my good cells out to fight off the bad cells. It’s like sending in the troops to blast out the pain. It is so hard to clear your mind completely. You just start to think that you are taking control of your own mind when boom, in comes the thoughts. Bills need to be paid … where did I put my clean jeans … oh ya, I’m suppose to be trying to meditate. It’s something you have to learn.
It takes practice. But you can do it.
Be careful not to encourage the deer to come around your yard. The ticks are out and they will be falling off the deer on the grass which will be so easy for them to get on the dogs, cats and children playing there. Check your animals also when they come in from being out in the high grass.
Weight-wise, I’m at 141. Still not getting to the 140 but still trying. It’s hard to get me to give up on most things.
Tip of the week: It’s been a long winter so now that the weather is getting nicer. Don’t be too fast to let the little ones go out without a heavy sweater - this is the time allergies start as well as summer colds.
If you want to start getting in shape for summer, try to start walking a little, anything just get up off the chair. I will give it a try this week.
I went in to the little tea shop on the corner in town next to the Bargain Boss store and I got some Yorkshire Harrowgate tea to try. It was really good and worth giving a try - very mild.
It’s hard to believe it’s chemo week next week again already. It seemed like I just went through it.
Janet and Dad are busy this weekend so they won’t be over. I miss them when they don’t come over in a couple of weeks.
Keep your fingers crossed that the needles don’t hurt too much tomorrow. I’ll leave the makeup off in case I cry too much. I’m a wimp when it comes to needles.
I’m not the only one in the family that faints because of needles. My brother Kevin passes out as fast as I do when he sees a needle coming at him.
Take some time for yourself this week and do something you like to do. Thank you for all the letters and gifts - they mean so much to me. Thank you for caring about me.
Well have a good week folks and yes, the June bugs are out so put your hood up if you’re walking.