Psst... I have a crush on you.
I can remember my first crush like it was yesterday (it was actually 33 years ago). His name was David and he was a blond cutie with blue eyes and a charming smile. We were in junior kindergarten and during snack time we would spread our towels on the floor beside one another and gaze into each other’s eyes. I am not joking when I say this actually happened. I can still remember the butterflies.
My teachers told my parents that even they could see it – the way we would play and tease and smile. When I look back on it, I wonder if he really was my first love. It sure felt like it.
My daughter has sworn me to secrecy when it comes to her boyfriends and crushes. As a senior kindergartener, she apparently has a line of suitors. One boy, in particular (who shall remain nameless), causes her to blush and giggle like, well, a schoolgirl.
I go back and forth on this. On one hand, it’s adorable as all heck and I love to see her smile when she says his name. On the other hand, I want to tell her that she has plenty of time for crushes and puppy love. So I follow her lead. Some days, she doesn’t want to discuss him. On other days, she happily tells me that she will marry him when she grows up. If she appears to be annoyed or embarrassed, I stop the romance talk.
However, the other day, I couldn’t help it; I busted out the “Eleanor and ‘boyfriend’, sitting in a tree...” She had never heard that song before. She covered my mouth so I couldn’t finish the lyrics, but then her face went red, her eyes lit up, and she said, “OK! Say it!” She put her hands over her excited face as I sang the rhyme from start to finish. Not gonna lie, she seemed pretty pleased.
This, I am sure, is just the beginning. There will be more crushes to come, first love, first breakup, and all the drama that happens in between. I will admit that I am looking forward to it. Love certainly is a roller coaster, but I’m excited to see her find that special someone and enjoy the ride.
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