CisGazed

Room Magazine - - CONTENTS - SAM JOWETT

1. Int. BED­ROOM

ZOOM IN on bed show Self wak­ing up sheets mer­cu­rial un­sheath­ing

Show­case fin­gers run­ning across stub­ble chin each shard of hair like dis­taste­ful ebony glit­ter

Em­pha­size Self re­al­iz­ing, aware the gnaw­ing ver­tigo of the day ahead

Self knows it’s go­ing to be a femme day Int. BATH­ROOM

ZOOM IN on ra­zor glint PAN as it glides across chin stub­ble eras­ing

CUT TO re­flec­tion

Self ex­am­in­ing in mir­ror, fin­gers brush­ing against cheek. A frown, shad­ows of hair re­main spec­tral char­coal on oth­er­wise smooth skin

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EX­TREME CLOSEUP of tan­ger­ine pop lip­stick glow­ing in­can­des­cent against de­sat­u­rated bath­room

Self mash­ing it against face un­til masked scorched orange

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Orange en­veloped in lay­ers of foun­da­tion

CUT TO Con­cealer

CUT TO Mas­cara

CUT TO Lip­stick, noir

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Self in the mir­ror, see­ing truth eyes wide a nod, a smile re­flec­tion ap­prov­ing al­ways the first and of­ten the last

2.

Ext. SUB­WAY

Self in jacket, denim skirt, tights, com­bat boots scorched blacks, magma scar­lets punk femme con­cen­trate out­fit con­trasts Self ’s face

PAN up to wari­ness fid­get­ing at­tempted ab­sorp­tion in mu­sic

FLASH­BACK TO

Yes­ter­day.

Self in per­for­mance bi­o­log­i­cal re­duc­tion dic­tat­ing an­gled blazer, col­lared shirt, stub­ble em­brac­ing but com­fort in­de­ter­mi­nate and re­stric­tion in­def­i­nite

Int. SUB­WAY

Show AU­DI­ENCE fel­low com­muters, screwed into phones, mu­sic, books

CUT TO Oc­ca­sional glances

CUT TO

A sin­gle stare clin­i­cal, un­blink­ing

CUT TO

Au­di­ence POV al­ways ap­prais­ing, in­ter­pret­ing

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Self, ap­praised, in­ter­preted eyes still down, ab­sorbed in floor frac­tals

3.

Int. COF­FEE SHOP

Two doors, twin bath­rooms sym­bol em­bla­zoned, gen­der en­shrined, colour-coded lol­lipop pinks, pop­si­cle blues

PAN to Self fa­mil­iar in un­der­stand­ing re­jec­tion in ty­pol­ogy clas­si­fi­ca­tion de­fi­ant un­listed, un­wel­come on this girl/boy drama­tis per­sonae

ZOOM IN on hand nails neb­ula vi­o­let palm flat on the sliver of con­crete be­tween th­ese twin ex­clu­sive realms as if some­thing any­thing will open

4. Ext. IR­REL­E­VANT, any­where, any­time

AU­DI­ENCE Are you . . .

In ev­ery per­for­mance the same two words an in­fi­nite ques­tion

Are you (a boy/dude/man) Are you (gay)

Are you (queer)

Are you (okay)

(What) are you?

ev­ery day the same genre re­stric­tion ev­ery day an un­will­ing doc­u­men­tary

ev­ery day a with­drawal to

Int. SELF here, an idea, an un­der­stand­ing, clair­voy­ant in mind yet starved for words a strug­gle, un­end­ing to man­i­fest the lim­i­nal into the tan­gi­ble to por­tray what this is what this means who they are hop­ing to

CUT TO a new per­spec­tive and

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Self ’s POV and

CUT TO shed­ding off genre and

CUT TO an end­lessly fluid ex­pres­sion un­con­fined re­flect­ing

CUT TO a core, a per­son, a self un­chang­ing

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