Fighting that uneasy feeling
It is the early afternoon when someone raps on your back door.
It is strange to have someone calling on you this early, but nevertheless you open the door, coming face-to-face with a young man. He looks innocent enough and asks for a donation.
He is in the middle of some rough times, and needs to be able to pay a bill.
You don’t have any money you say, but there are a couple of bags of bottles and cans in the basement the man can have. They might not pay the bill, but it is a start.
As the man takes the cans from your basement, something shakes you about the young man.
An uneasy feeling is starting to form in the pit of your stomach. You know, the one you get when someone is behind you or it seems like you’re being watched.
For no reason at all, you start to suspect the man of something.
Fast-forward 10 minutes and the exchange ends. The man is long gone and you’re left to enjoy an afternoon cup of tea with cream crackers lathered with some butter. Still, that feeling has not left you. In fact, it will stay with you the rest of evening and into the morning. Doubt creeps into your mind as questions start popping up. Who was the man? What did he really want? Was there some other point to his visit? From that point on, every creek of a floorboard or stray headlight causes you to second glance.
It is a common feeling to have when you feel you’re personal space has been violated. Every one is suspicious and you can’t check the locks enough times.
One can only imagine what those three in St. John’s are feeling when they turn the light off at night, or those who were the victims of home invasions in Carbonear a couple of months ago.
There are more than just physical or material scars for the victims of a theft. There is a mental aspect to it as well.
The perpetrator thrives on it. They need to see the fear they’ve caused. It is what they get off on. You feel helpless in your own home. Some can compartmentalize and can deal with the crime better, while for others taking back control is the only option.
It would not be possible to begin living life anew if it is not done.
You cannot begin the healing process until you start seizing your old life back.
The above scenario was not a theft or an invasion. In fact, it doesn’t even compare to having your home broken into. But that feeling of unease is the same. It is a notion that can ruin your life or just your evening. Regardless of how severe it is, these people are planting themselves in your life and imprinting a sense of fear.
If you want to return to your some semblance of being, don’t let them.