“Let the world say whatever it wants”
November 10, 1943, Aga Khan Palace, Pune Today Bapu, suffering from anaemia, fainted while taking a bath with Sushilaben. Then Sushilaben held Bapu with one hand and wore her clothes with the other and brought him out.
December 21, 1946, Srirampur, Bihar
Tonight, when Bapu, Sushilaben and I were sleeping on the same cot, he embraced me and patted me. He put me to sleep with great love. He embraced me after a very long time. Then Bapu praised me for remaining innocent ( of sexual urges) despite sleeping with him. But this isn’t the case with the other girls. Veena, Kanchan and Lilavati ( other associates of Gandhi) told me that they won’t be able to sleep with him.
January 1, 1947, Kethuri, Bihar
Sushilaben is imploring me to marry her brother Pyarelal. She told me she would help me become a nurse only if I agreed to her proposal for her brother. But I ticked her off on this and spoke to Bapu about it. Bapu told me Sushila is not in her senses. He said till recently, she used to bathe before him naked and also sleep with him. But now he has to lean on me. He said I must remain clean and have patience ( with the celibacy experiment).
February 2, 1947, Dashdharia, Bihar
Bapu has told his followers during the morning prayer that he was carrying out celibacy experiments with me. Then he explained to me why he spoke about it. I felt very relieved as it will stop tongues from wagging. I told myself I don’t care now. Let the world say whatever it wants.
GANDHI WITH ABHA( LEFT) AND DR SUSHILA NAYAR AT BIRLA HOUSE IN DELHI, 1947