“I requested Bapu to allow me to sleep separately”
February 25, 1947, Haimchar, Bihar
Bapu told Bapa ( Amritlal Thakkar was popularly called Thakkar Bapa) that Brahmacharya is one of the five commandments of religion and he was trying to pass that test. He said this was his yagna for atmashuddhi ( self- purification) and he can’t suspend it because of the public opinion against it. Then Bapa told him that his definition of Brahmacharya was quite different from that of the common
man and asked what would happen if the Muslim League comes to know about it and uses it to make innuendos. Bapu replied saying he won’t leave what he saw as his religion because of a certain fear and that he had told Birla ( G. D. Birla, industrialist) that if his mind is impure during the experiment and he was being hypocritical, then he would die a miserable death. Bapu also told Bapa that even if Vallabhbhai ( Patel) or Kishorebhai ( Mashruwala) leave him, he will continue the experiment.
March 2, 1947, Haimchar, Bihar
Today Bapu received a secret letter from Bapa. He gave it to me for reading. The letter was so moving that I requested Bapu to allow me to sleep separately from today for the sake of satisfying Bapa. When I told Bapa about my decision, he said after talking to Bapu and me he was satisfied with the aim of the experiment but my decision to sleep separately and bring an end to the experiment was proper. Then Bapa wrote a letter to Kishorelal Mashruwala and Devdas Gandhi that the chapter had now ended.
GANDHI WITH THAKKAR BAPA IN MADRAS, 1946
GANDHI WITH SARDAR VALLABHBHAI PATEL IN SHIMLA, 1945