When You’re Not Truthful
You can only be either destructive or creative. If your energies are not released into creativity, they will make you angry, full of hatred and violence. Then there are two ways for that violence to go: one is to be violent with others, and the other is to be violent with yourself. The politician is violent with others.
Hitler and Mussolini were violent with others; Mahatma Gandhi was totally different, he was the apostle of non-violence — but he was continuously destructive towards himself. If you are not being your true self, you are lying. You may not be literally lying, you may not even be aware that you are lying, but you smile when you are not feeling like smiling, you say hello to somebody when there is no heart in it — it is a lie. When you say to somebody, “I love you,” just formally, you are lying.
That’s why the Buddha says: it is hard to be authentic. But if you live an authentic life, you accept all this, in you and in others; you don’t reject it. This is part of life, this is how we grow. All sweetness and all politeness is phoney. An authentic person is sweet and bitter; he loves, he hates. When you accept both the polarities of your being, you become authentic. Then you are not lying.
The Buddha was never in favour of repression. The Buddha says, become more conscious of your lying, of your destructiveness.… Beware, because you are digging up your own roots. The man who is not a master of himself, whatsoever he is doing to others is destructive, and ultimately all that destruction rebounds on himself.