FADI: MY SHAME FOR NOT SAVING GEORGE
His hell as publishers fight for €1m book deal
GEORGE Michael’s tormented lover Fadi Fawaz has told of his “hell and shame” at not being able to save the pop icon.
Fadi, 43, broke his silence in a poem about Christmas Day – when George, 53, died. Fadi, whose story is set to be the subject of a €1m bidding war, wrote: “I find myself in hell... I hate that day.”
FADI Fawaz has laid bare his agony at losing lover George Michael in a haunting poem that reveals his ongoing hell.
Four verses spell out the 43-year-old’s torment over the Christmas Day death of his superstar partner.
Fadi is believed to have penned the poem in recent days – as a friend revealed he is facing continued hostility from George’s family.
The pal said: “He has not had any love from George’s family, they continue to be very hostile as George’s will and estate is sorted out, so the sadness of losing George has been amplified tenfold.”
Fadi, a fine art photographer, was the last person to see George alive. He has maintained a dignified silence about the 53-year-old star’s death at his Oxfordshire home.
But he has finally decided to speak out in a poem which relives the day George died. Fadi writes: “One heart decides to fail, I find myself in hell, Now I feel ashamed, One Christmas Day.”
He goes on to say he “hates that day”.
The final verse says: “I go to bed to lay, I feel more ashamed, I try to hide my head, Pillows turn to red, I lost my way, One Christmas Day.”
Pals say heartbroken Fadi wrote the poem after being effectively cut off by George’s family since his funeral.
One friend said: “Fadi feels ashamed about not being able to save George, he misses him so much.
“There is a lot of emotion coming from him at the moment and this is a medium in which he can express himself.”
A coroner ruled George died of natural causes at home in Goring-on-thames. After the death Fadi said in a statement: “We were supposed to be going for Christmas lunch.
“I went round there to wake him up and he was just gone, lying peacefully in bed.
“We don’t know what happened yet. Everything had been very complicated recently, but George was looking forward to Christmas, and so was I.”
He later tweeted: “It’s a Xmas I will never forget, finding your partner dead peacefully in bed first thing in the morning... I will never stop missing you.”
Last week he caused intrigue on Twitter, stating: “The truth is yet to be told.. not long now.”
Talking about his dire financial situation, he added: “The truth is I couldn’t afford to buy him a flower to put next to his grave or light him a candle on his birthday.”
Last week our pictures showed George’s riverside home in Goring has become a shrine to his memory.
Followers make the pilgrimage to the 16th century property to lay flowers, pictures and messages outside.
Many say they go there because they haven’t had a chance to say goodbye to
their hero. Fans are calling for a memorial concert because they are “at a loss” when it comes to honouring him.
Their comments come after stars like Sir Bob Geldof and Simon Cowell backed the Sunday Mirror’s campaign for a gig in tribute to George. Dame Esther Rantzen pledged to organise the event at the Royal Albert Hall.
George and Fadi met in 2009 and started a romance shortly after the singer split with Kenny Goss, 58.
Fadi is said to have helped George through a series of personal issues, including a stint in a Swiss rehab centre
to combat his drug addictions in 2015. But his relationship with George’s family continues to be strained. Kenny told how George’s family snubbed Fadi at the funeral and how they have tried to evict him from two of George’s homes.
The singer’s cousin, Andros Georgiou, claimed the Michael family “hate him” and that Fadi “was not really his boyfriend”.
But a source adds: “All of these claims have been deeply disturbing for Fadi. He was the one who was there for George right until the very end.”
PARTNERS Fadi and pop star lover George
I’M YOUR MAN Fadi gets hug from superstar lover George