FADI: MY SHAME FOR NOT SAV­ING GEORGE

His hell as pub­lish­ers fight for €1m book deal

Irish Sunday Mirror - - FRONT PAGE - BY HALINA WATTS Show­biz Ed­i­tor

GEORGE Michael’s tor­mented lover Fadi Fawaz has told of his “hell and shame” at not be­ing able to save the pop icon.

Fadi, 43, broke his si­lence in a poem about Christ­mas Day – when George, 53, died. Fadi, whose story is set to be the sub­ject of a €1m bid­ding war, wrote: “I find my­self in hell... I hate that day.”

FADI Fawaz has laid bare his agony at los­ing lover George Michael in a haunt­ing poem that re­veals his on­go­ing hell.

Four verses spell out the 43-year-old’s tor­ment over the Christ­mas Day death of his su­per­star part­ner.

Fadi is be­lieved to have penned the poem in re­cent days – as a friend re­vealed he is fac­ing con­tin­ued hos­til­ity from George’s fam­ily.

The pal said: “He has not had any love from George’s fam­ily, they con­tinue to be very hos­tile as George’s will and es­tate is sorted out, so the sad­ness of los­ing George has been am­pli­fied ten­fold.”

Fadi, a fine art pho­tog­ra­pher, was the last per­son to see George alive. He has main­tained a dig­ni­fied si­lence about the 53-year-old star’s death at his Ox­ford­shire home.

But he has fi­nally de­cided to speak out in a poem which re­lives the day George died. Fadi writes: “One heart de­cides to fail, I find my­self in hell, Now I feel ashamed, One Christ­mas Day.”

He goes on to say he “hates that day”.

ASHAMED

The fi­nal verse says: “I go to bed to lay, I feel more ashamed, I try to hide my head, Pil­lows turn to red, I lost my way, One Christ­mas Day.”

Pals say heart­bro­ken Fadi wrote the poem af­ter be­ing ef­fec­tively cut off by George’s fam­ily since his fu­neral.

One friend said: “Fadi feels ashamed about not be­ing able to save George, he misses him so much.

“There is a lot of emo­tion com­ing from him at the mo­ment and this is a medium in which he can ex­press him­self.”

A coroner ruled George died of nat­u­ral causes at home in Gor­ing-on-thames. Af­ter the death Fadi said in a state­ment: “We were sup­posed to be go­ing for Christ­mas lunch.

“I went round there to wake him up and he was just gone, ly­ing peace­fully in bed.

“We don’t know what hap­pened yet. Ev­ery­thing had been very com­pli­cated re­cently, but George was look­ing for­ward to Christ­mas, and so was I.”

He later tweeted: “It’s a Xmas I will never for­get, find­ing your part­ner dead peace­fully in bed first thing in the morn­ing... I will never stop miss­ing you.”

Last week he caused in­trigue on Twit­ter, stat­ing: “The truth is yet to be told.. not long now.”

Talk­ing about his dire fi­nan­cial sit­u­a­tion, he added: “The truth is I couldn’t af­ford to buy him a flower to put next to his grave or light him a can­dle on his birth­day.”

Last week our pic­tures showed George’s river­side home in Gor­ing has be­come a shrine to his mem­ory.

Fol­low­ers make the pil­grim­age to the 16th cen­tury prop­erty to lay flow­ers, pic­tures and mes­sages out­side.

Many say they go there be­cause they haven’t had a chance to say good­bye to

their hero. Fans are call­ing for a me­mo­rial con­cert be­cause they are “at a loss” when it comes to hon­our­ing him.

Their com­ments come af­ter stars like Sir Bob Geldof and Si­mon Cow­ell backed the Sun­day Mir­ror’s cam­paign for a gig in trib­ute to George. Dame Es­ther Rantzen pledged to or­gan­ise the event at the Royal Al­bert Hall.

George and Fadi met in 2009 and started a ro­mance shortly af­ter the singer split with Kenny Goss, 58.

Fadi is said to have helped George through a se­ries of per­sonal is­sues, in­clud­ing a stint in a Swiss re­hab cen­tre

to com­bat his drug ad­dic­tions in 2015. But his re­la­tion­ship with George’s fam­ily con­tin­ues to be strained. Kenny told how George’s fam­ily snubbed Fadi at the fu­neral and how they have tried to evict him from two of George’s homes.

The singer’s cousin, An­dros Ge­or­giou, claimed the Michael fam­ily “hate him” and that Fadi “was not re­ally his boyfriend”.

But a source adds: “All of these claims have been deeply dis­turb­ing for Fadi. He was the one who was there for George right un­til the very end.”

PART­NERS Fadi and pop star lover George

I’M YOUR MAN Fadi gets hug from su­per­star lover George

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