CHOCOLATE & WATCHES
COURTNEY SINA MEREDITH shares an original poem inspired by what Christmas means to her – family.
A year’s worth of longing in the shape of chocolates and watches. You can dive with these you can time travel… People will equate you with power, the man at the shop assured me and he should know, selling diamond hours. These are the days I walked open fields doing my best impression of the mist careful to walk into shadows so as to tell you, Christmas day,
another darkness vanquished another yonder measured the map of lands I collected, while you slept, my brothers. Tying bows of red and gold writing your names in silver loops, here is a gator claw here is the whole moon on a key ring… Here is my voice in a room full of strangers seeking you out from afar. The shine of your legs slicing water the moment you’d come up for air looking over, my cue to wave, my turn to wait. On different planets in the same room glazing the ham, yet again, your golden bodies bring the house to life. There’s the cross on your foot from the rocky side of the beach there’s the eczema that flares up when you aren’t sleeping well. It won’t be long before lovers count your scars it won’t be long before anchors rich and strange reveal themselves. I want to tell you how fast it goes I want to say, you are many gardens, and the source of all things can be found within. Instead, we break bread and laugh, the dog whines, the clouds clear. You are tender and ancient you are breaking my heart open and open and open. *Courtney Sina Meredith is an Auckland-based poet, playwright, writer and musician.