The ques­tion

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has never been “Am I crazy?” but rather “Am I so crazy that I’m doomed to be alone all my life?” As the child of a men­tally ill poet and a rag­ing al­co­holic phi­los­o­phy pro­fes­sor who gave me away to be raised by their even cra­zier psy­chi­a­trist, I wor­ried I might be too warped to ever fit per­fectly against some­body else. That my crazy parts would keep all the good, sane peo­ple away.

In a way, this is ex­actly what hap­pened.

I felt dented and bro­ken in so many ways that my 20s and 30s were ab­so­lutely lit­tered with failed re­la­tion­ships. But the bril­liant thing about grow­ing older is that you care less. I re­al­ized it was hope­less to try to pull my­self to­gether and act nor­mal and sane be­cause I wasn’t and never would be. I

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