Rape victim says her kids keep her alive!
AToni Nicholas bout 8 pm on Sunday 1 March 2015, as she made her way home from a friend’s house along a Lastic Hill pathway, she was brutally raped. This week she recalled her ordeal, one that she may not easily forget, but one she is trying to put behind her.
“I have spoken to so many people and gone over this so many times. It is very difficult.” She continues to receive counseling but says; “I don’t know how much it has helped. Most of the time, when I am alone, stuff goes through my head.”
She lives with her daughter who is too young to understand what happened to her mom, and her son who refuses to even discuss the matter with her.
The last time she contacted her investigating officer she learned that no one had been ready to make a statement, even after a suspect had turned himself in.
“People were talking in the area, saying they knew who raped me, but never to the police,” she says. Moreover, although DNA samples were taken from the victim and a male, they were never tested. A faulty machine at the lab, yet to be fixed or replaced, was blamed.
The night of the ordeal the victim says she was not able to identify her victim although, as she was walking along the track, she did notice someone at the end of the route standing in the shadows. In the blink of an eye she was seized from behind and a struggle ensued. “What really gets me is that I could not do anything about it although I fought back and every time I think about it that’s what pisses me off,” she said fighting the tears. “I got a hold of the weapon he had but the way he struggled with me on to the ground, I fell on the weapon, which was a pair of scissors, and ended up lying there on it and that was when I was raped. At that point all I was thinking about is getting home.”
When it was all over the panic-stricken victim screamed for help and by the time someone came to her rescue she had blacked out.
“Right now, most of the time all I want is be alone, although the company of my children helps,” she says. “I go to town sometimes but I am constantly looking over my shoulders in fear. I am no longer comfortable in crowds.”
She is unemployed, desperately trying to cope with being a single mom and the burden of being a rape victim. And while she advises other victims to seek help and counseling, she knows how difficult it is to be in a rape victim’s shoes.
“I know it is not easy but you have to convince yourself that you will overcome,” she sighed. “Most importantly, that it was not your fault, you did not cause this to happen to you. I know that I did nothing wrong and that is the source of my strength, as well as my two children. If I did not have them maybe I would think about things like suicide, but I have to be strong, as hard as it is for myself and my two children. I pray and I pray.”
A victim of rape recounts her ordeal as she tries to move on with