‘I AM ONLY 12, BUT ALREADY I FEEL LIKE A big girl’
When this girl was 11 years old, she was raped by her schoolteacher, who threatened to kill her if she spoke out
‘Iwas only 11 years old when my class teacher raped me. This was a man I trusted and looked up to. But he is not only my teacher; he is also my neighbour and a relative. At school, he always told me that he was in love with me. He told me that he would treat me good if I became his girlfriend. He bought me oranges and biscuits. I told him he was too old to be saying these things to me and that I was not interested.
One day he gave me R4 at school and said I must hang on to it because he wanted to buy R5 airtime from my mum, who sells airtime in our village.
When I was at home, he phoned me and asked that I bring his R4. I did not see anything wrong. It was already starting to be dark and I told my mother I would be back soon.
When I got to his home, he did not say anything about money. He just looked at me in a strange way. I asked him what was wrong. He did not say a word.
Then he made advances and touched me. I told him to stop and that I would tell my mother, and that I would scream. He threatened to kill me and flee the village if I screamed or told anyone.
Then he raped me. I cried. I was scared and did not know what to do. After I had managed to escape, I went to an unused room, where I tried to sleep. I could not sleep. I could hear my mother and grandmother looking for me, and calling my name. I did not want to speak to anyone. I was ashamed. But I told my mother and she called the police.
I don’t know why he did this to me. I was just 11 years old and innocent. I am very scared of him. I don’t ever want to see him again after what he did to me. He destroyed my life. I hate him. I want him to suffer and rot in jail for the dirty things he did to me. He is evil. I trusted him as my teacher, and an elder.
I had to change schools to run away from him and to run away from the gossiping at school. My life has changed completely. I try to be strong, but am still hurting.
I cannot forget what he did to me. I am always cautious wherever I go and am not comfortable around men all the time. I am always suspicious and scared. It’s hard.
I want to make a difference to others lives. I always wanted to be a social worker even before this happened. But now am more determined to be one so that I can help others who go through the same thing.
My younger sister is seven years old. I would not want this to happen to her. It’s horrible, but with time I am starting to deal with it and am getting stronger each day.
I am only 12 years old now, but already I feel like a big girl.”
THE LONG ROAD TO RECOVERY The 12-year-old girl looks out of a window at her grandmother’s house in Bethany village in Dutywa in the Eastern Cape
20 October 2013 A teacher has been arrested in connection with the rape of an 11-year-old pupil in Dutywa near Butterworth