I FEEL I SHOULD DIE - UYANDA

God I need help

Sunday World - - Front Page - NGWAKO MALATJI

SO­CIAL but­ter­fly Uyanda Mbuli has been flash­ing a smile that leaves men swoon­ing at red-car­pet events, but the al­lur­ing smile masks a sad and trou­bled woman.

Uyanda thought death was the only way she could es­cape her demons.

This is con­tained in a copy of her diary, which forms part of sub­mis­sions made in her long-stand­ing pro­tec­tion or­der ap­pli­ca­tion bat­tle against her es­tranged hubby Sisa Mbuli, which was fi­nalised at the Midrand Mag­is­trates Court on

’ Fri­day.

Some­times I feel like I should “just die,” she wrote. I have been run­ning away “from my prob­lems all my life but now I can t run away any more.

’ I found some­one who “truly loves me who can take all the sh**t that I come with. But now I will lose “him. I am driv­ing him away. I need help. Oh God I need “help … The only thing I ve “’ ever man­aged to do in my life is drive peo­ple away, she wrote.

Uyanda also con­fessed to ne­glect­ing her mat­ri­mo­nial du­ties and that she felt she is as use­less as they come. What am I good for? Noth­ing. Sisa stays “with me yet I can t even keep the house clean

’ to show that there is a woman in the house. I carry my big head as if I m some queen “’ of same (sic). I pre­tend I can live on my own “yet I can (sic) bear the thought of be­ing alone for 2 min with­out him. Oh God, I love him so but I need help.”

… And she thought death would be the only es­cape.

Some­times I feel like I “should just die. Sisa might think he has a prob­lem but he doesn t.

’ I m the one “’ with a prob­lem. I am the prob­lem.”

Sun­day World has learnt she wrote this about six years ago.

malatjin @sun­day­world.co. za

malatjin@sun­day­world.co.za

Picture by Mabuti Kali

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