I just knew it Was real
After losing our first baby three years ago, we put our dreams of starting a family on the back burner. Our careers came first to my fiancé and I, until one fateful day in June 2013. I woke up feeling quite different than usual. A few days passed and in
the back of my head a voice kept saying, “You’re pregnant.” That evening my fiancé came home with three pregnancy tests – he was that excited. I did three but they all looked unclear, so I gave up and went to sleep. Two more tests later I thought I was going crazy – all the tests were neither negative nor positive.
But I just had to know, so I secretly made a doctor’s appointment the next day. About 20 minutes into that appointment that little voice inside of me was validated; I was five weeks into a pregnancy. When I told my fiancé, he nearly fell off the couch! It was one of the most beautiful moments in our relationship.
After contracting meningitis in my third trimester and suffering bruised ribs when baby got stuck, our beautiful daughter arrived six weeks early in February 2014.
about being able to give my son what he needs.
I realised things aren’t as simple as I thought – the things I worried about when pregnant are the easiest to do, the things I didn’t even wonder about are the hardest. I think when you’re pregnant you are so focused on whether you will be a good mom or not that you just can’t seem to take anything in that you read, unless it’s pregnancy related. To all the moms-tobe out there, take it easy! Rest while you can, I know it’s hard when you’re pregnant but do it. Don’t sweat the small stuff and spend time reading up about the things that matter. And when baby arrives and you’re struggling with a wide awake baby late at night, remember soon he will be big and you won’t be able to hold him on your chest so easily. And most of all, don’t be too hard on yourself. The fact that you’re trying already means a lot. Be the best you can be, it’s enough for your baby.