Why I obey a mystery voice
A disembodied voice guides me through my life
Shoving my jumper into my bag, I glanced at the time.
‘Crikey, I’m going to be late collecting my friends,’ I gasped aloud.
I dashed outside and bundled my bag into my car. I was off to the Fairy Fayre at Glastonbury for the first time, driving a few friends down from Gloucester with me. I was so excited – we were in for the best day ever!
Twenty minutes later, I was on the dual carriageway. All around me, my friends were talking and giggling.
Just as I approached the first exit, I heard a loud voice over the din.
‘Go home. Turn around and go home,’ the voice told me.
‘No way,’ I thought dismissively. ‘I’ve been looking forward to this event for weeks.’
You see, it wasn’t one of my friends talking to me.
I’m clairsentient which means I hear spirit. And this was a direct communication from spirit.
I’d heard this voice a few times before. It was neither male nor female but always very clear in its intent.
This time, though, I was determined to go to Glastonbury, so I ignored it.
‘What can happen? Everything’s going to be fine,’ I thought.
But just a few minutes later, as I approached the next exit, the voice came again.
‘Turn around. Go home,’ it insisted.
My friends were chatting happily amongst themselves. They were as excited about the Fayre as I was. There was no way I was about to announce, ‘We can’t go because a voice in my head told me not to.’
So I ignored the voice for a second time - and then a third time. By then, it was shouting in my ear!
But after that, the voice went silent.
‘There,’ I told myself. ‘It’s all fine now.’
We had a great day at the Fairy Fayre, and we explored the town and the Tor, which meant it was dark by the time we set off for home. I’d forgotten about the voice’s message. Ten minutes into our journey, the car in front of me suddenly stopped. I was doing 45 miles an hour, and there was a big gap between us, but even though I slammed on the brakes, I couldn't stop quickly enough. My car crashed into the vehicle in front. The driver behind me didn’t have time to stop, either. She went straight into the back of me. I was jerked painfully forward as her car hit mine mine. I suffered severe whiplash, whiplash but luckily, none of my friends were injured. injured M My car, however, was a write-off. ‘I should have listened to the voice,’ I grumbled when I arrived home hours later. I’d been warned
It's neither male nor female
something bad would happen if I didn’t turn back, but I’d ignored the spirit guidance.
You would think I’d have learnt from past experience, because a few years earlier, a similar thing happened. The voice told me not to drive my car and yet I still got in it and was involved in an accident that
wasn’t my fault. That time, I’d gone out to buy milk and seen a huge truck hurtling towards me on a narrow street. The driver was on his mobile and I knew he hadn’t seen me so I edged in between two parked cars. Unfortunately, the side of my car was sticking out. The truck’s wheel nuts opened the side of my car like it was a tin of sardines. But now, after two warnings, I do listen. More than once, I’ve been on dates and the voice has said, ‘No, he’s not the one for you.’ I haven't wasted my time, just made a polite excuse and left. The voice has also helped me with my writing. The title for my latest self-help book Where’s my F**ingunicorn F**ing Unicorn came from the voice. I woke up with the words flowing and had to write them all down quickly, because I knew if I didn’t, they would have floated away and I wouldn’t
I regularly do a writing meditation, and I find that I can hear guidance from the voice more clearly when I'm writing. It doesn’t matter if I type out the words or hand-write them, as long as I express what I am hearing in some way. Often, these scenes and ideas then form the stories in my novels.
I’ve still no idea who the voice actually belongs to. Is it a spirit guide? My intuition?
I don’t know, but I trust its advice. It’s never told me to do anything bad – if it did, I would go straight to a doctor! I’m well aware that hearing voices can be the sign of an underlying health problem, but this is nothing like that. The voice is protective and looks out for me.
Even so, I make sure I clear my psychic energy every day with a simple technique. I lie down, take a few deep breaths and imagine a powerful white light, like a sonic boom, coming out of my heart chakra flooding my body and my home with protective cleansing energy. It’s always a good idea to do this if you’re working with spirit.
I believe we could all do with a bit of guidance, and whether it’s an angel, spirit, or just my own psychic intuition, I’ve always got an ally by my side.
I've no idea who the voice belongs to
Michelle Gordon, 34, from Gloucester
Where’s My F**ing Unicorn: A guide to Life, Your Unicorn & Everything by Michelle Gordon (Ammonite Press, £7.99) is out now.