‘Pink ribbon scars that never forget / I tried so hard to cleanse these regrets’
The upbeat demeanour of the Pumpkins’ breakthrough hit was a Trojan horse for its real inspiration. In 2000, Billy told VH1 Storytellers that after the Gish tour, he’d become “completely obsessed with killing myself”. Today was about the clarity of someone who’s reached rock bottom, written from the perspective of their last day on Earth being the ‘greatest’. Happily, writing this song was part of Billy’s fightback against his demons; as he later told VH1 he considered it “a positive song, in that it’s about survival”.