“That’s my mind. It’s broken”
Holmes documented his gradual mental breakdown in a notebook he mailed to a University of Colorado psychiatrist
Holmes had met with mental health professionals in the past, and one psychiatrist even suspected he had a borderline condition, and that he could be dangerous. Just days before the midnight premiere, Holmes posted a notebook to a psychiatrist who had treated him, which only arrived after the cinema shooting. Inside are the “Insights into the mind of madness”. Holmes diagnoses himslef with a range of mental disorders of varying severity. Terrifyingly, he draws dozens of stick men, most lying flat and one standing, followed by a string of equations in which he tries to gauge the value of a murderer by the number of people they kill. He then talks about his own obsession with mass murder, followed by a plan of his attack on the Aurora cinema complex.