‘IT’S SO HARD ON MY OWN!’
As her ex-boyfriend Arthur Collins’ criminal trial comes to an end, brave new mum Ferne McCann is feeling the strain after welcoming their baby daughter Sunday – yet she’s determined to go it alone…
Ferne McCann never had the fairytale pregnancy that most mumsto-be dream of… because, just days after finding out she was expecting, her boyfriend was the target of a nationwide manhunt after 16 people were injured in a horrific acid attack.
While Ferne, 27, is besotted with her newborn daughter, Sunday, she’s also discovering that life as a single parent is tough – and the first two weeks of motherhood have been emotional and draining for her.
‘She is really struggling to cope with the emotional strain of being a new mum,’ says a source close to Ferne. ‘She feels she has to prove to everyone that she can do it on her own, without a man in her life.’
Along with the sleepless nights, constant feeds and nappy changes that all new mums experience, the ex-TOWIE star is battling additional stress.
Baby Sunday’s dad, Arthur Collins, has been on trial for the past three weeks, accused of injuring clubbers with corrosive acid at an east London nightclub.
Last week, the court heard how Arthur, 25, allegedly launched the acid across the dance floor because a fellow clubber showed him ‘disrespect’. He denies the charges and, as Reveal went to press, the jury was still deliberating its verdict.
PUTTING ON A BRAVE FACE
Ferne ended the relationship as soon as Arthur was arrested, which means she has faced her whole pregnancy alone – and friends say she’s found it tough.
‘Ferne is completely besotted with her baby, but she’s constantly breaking down in tears and completely exhausted, emotionally and physically,’ says the insider. ‘She says she’s never felt so isolated, because she has nobody there for her in the middle of the night to share the precious moments.’
Yet, strong, proud and determined to make the best out of a tough situation, Ferne has been soldiering on.
She’s been showing off baby Sunday on Instagram. Looking every inch the capable new mummy, the TV presenter protectively cradled her gorgeous new daughter in her arms, tenderly kissing her forehead.
‘I thought today would be the perfect day to tell you her name,’ wrote Ferne. ‘Meet Sunday. Welcome to the world, my little darling. I’m so in love and bursting with pride.’
Whatever Ferne has set her mind to in life, she’s done it with passion and vigour. She won the title of Miss Essex in 2012 and went on to become one of TOWIE’s best-known faces, despite not joining the ITVBe show until series nine. Ferne then wowed audiences on
I’m A Celebrity… in 2015 and went on to become a successful TV presenter, hosting segments of ITV’s This Morning and appearing in a stage production of classic novel The Great Gatsby.
Wanting to be just as successful as a new mum, Ferne is piling pressure on herself.
‘It’s so difficult for her, doing it alone, and she has panic attacks about doing everything perfectly,’ says our source. ‘She’s being really hard on herself and feels the public are waiting for her to fail.
‘Ferne is so determined to do everything herself that she’s refusing [the help of] nannies and babysitters and feels she has to prove she can be a great mum.’
Yet the pressure to be perfect is taking its toll on tired Ferne.
‘The first two weeks of motherhood have been really tough for her – it’s been much harder than she thought,’ adds the source.
‘She’s completely in love with baby Sunday and feels extremely blessed, but she’s also the most vulnerable she’s ever been. Everyone around her is amazed at how great a job she’s doing, but she’s her own biggest critic.’
IT’S A MAN-FREE ZONE
When we interviewed Ferne in March last year, before she met Arthur, she described her perfect man as ‘kind, caring, considerate, loyal and charismatic’.
The reality TV star added, ‘I know it’s hard to find all this in one guy, but I just want someone who gets me – that I can have fun with.’
Now, as Ferne embarks on motherhood alone, romance is way down the list.
‘During those middle-of-the-night feeds, she feels really lonely, like she has nobody to share those precious, intimate moments with the baby,’ adds our source.
‘The hardest part for her is not having a man by her side, to help her through the inevitable stress and emotion that becoming a mum for the first time brings.
‘She desperately misses a man’s companionship in her life – even more so now she is going through such massive change and upheaval.
‘But, at the minute, Ferne’s selfconfidence is low. She keeps saying, “No man is going to walk into a situation like this, with a young baby, and me feeling and looking like this.”
‘Everyone wishes she’d go easier on herself – she’s a great mum, and any guy would be lucky to have her.’
Ferne’s tender image of baby Sunday
She wants to be the best mum there is… Friends reckon tired Ferne’s selfconfidence is low P1
MUM’S THE WORD … but the pressure is getting to her