It’s been one year since I lost Ryan. I’m still numb. It’s not get­ting any eas­ier

Mum Stacey can­not get over tragic death of son

Rutherglen Reformer - - News - Dou­glas Dickie

The mother of tragic Ryan McLean this week ad­mit­ted she still feels numb one year on from her son’s death.

Lit­tle Ryan ( 6), a for­mer pupil at Spit­tal Pri­mary, lost his bat­tle against a brain tu­mour on Sun­day, Oc­to­ber 5, last year.

To mark the first an­niver­sary of his death, his mum Stacey Mal­loy, as well as fam­ily and friends, joined to­gether to re­lease bal­loons into the night sky over Castlemilk, where he lived.

Dozens of bal­loons were re­leased by well-wish­ers, some of whom 28-yearold Stacey ad­mits she does not even know, although their sup­port has come as a great com­fort to her.

Look­ing back on that painful time a year ago, she said: “I don’t think it re­ally hit me un­til re­cently. I’ve tried to block it out, just mak­ing sure I am al­ways busy.

“To be quite hon­est with you, I still feel numb. Look­ing back is just a blank.

“It feels like it hap­pened to some­one else.

“I used to go and visit his grave ev­ery week but it’s get­ting harder and harder ev­ery time I go. It’s not any eas­ier. If any­thing it’s get­ting worse.”

In his short life Ryan went through a 12-month course of chemo­ther­apy and en­dured four ma­jor brain oper­a­tions as well as over 50 other pro­ce­dures.

His fam­ily were told in 2011 that his con­di­tion was ter­mi­nal but Ryan kept fight­ing and was able to start at Spit­tal in 2013, de­fy­ing doc­tors’ pre­dic­tions.

How­ever, his con­di­tion de­te­ri­o­rated again and he passed away sur­rounded by his fam­ily at Yorkhill Hos­pi­tal.

It left Stacey’s other chil­dren - Reece (5) and Paige (3), as well as his sis­ter Pa­ton ( 2) by his fa­ther, also Ryan - with­out their big brother.

Stacey had to move from the fam­ily’s Drakemire Drive home to a new house in Tor­musk as the mem­o­ries were so painful.

And she ad­mits his death has taken its toll on Reece.

“Paige is al­right but Reece is find­ing it very hard,” she said.

“They were best pals as well as broth­ers. They had a bed each in the bed­room but al­ways slept in the same one.”

Those pay­ing trib­ute on Mon­day night let go a mix of gold bal­loons, to raise aware­ness of child can­cer, and Peppa Pig bal­loons af­ter Ryan’s favourite TV show.

The football-daft young­ster was also a mas­sive Celtic fan who loved his mo­bile phone, as well as the TV char­ac­ter Mr Turnbull, whom he met in Lon­don through the Make a Wish Foun­da­tion.

Stacey laughed: “Ryan was such a char­ac­ter. Ev­ery­one in Castlemilk knew who he was.”

Stacey has been over­whelmed with the sup­port she has been of­fered, even from peo­ple she does not know.

“The thought of ev­ery­one for­get­ting him is just un­bear­able,” she said.

“A lot of peo­ple have been vis­it­ing his grave and I don’t even know them. It’s al­ways spot­less, per­fect with noth­ing out of place.

“My mum and dad bought him a bench so the kids would sit with him and Reece helped my dad put it there. He was so proud of it.”

She added: “I just want to say thank you to ev­ery­one in the Castlemilk com­mu­nity and even on Face­book, where there are peo­ple al­ways writ­ing on my wall.”

Ryan was a char­ac­ter; ev­ery­one knew him

Trib­ute Friends and fam­ily met on Mon­day to re­mem­ber Ryan Heart­break Stacey with brave Ryan

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