MODEL SAYS VISIBLE REMINDER OF DARKEST HOUR
face and the tipped- over bottle of pills is a constant reminder that I’m a survivor and that it will never happen again.
“I wake up every morning thankful that I am still here.
“Like a Polaroid picture, that night is in my past and that’s where it will stay. My tattoo is a symbol of strength, not weakness, and I hope by telling my story, I can pass on that strength to others.”
Bobby, who is a member of Kilbarchan Athletics Club in Renfrewshire and a former Scottish Schools javelin champion, added: “I want to let other guys know it’s all right not to feel all right – and no matter how down you feel, there will be happier days ahead.
“The key is to stop bottling up your feelings and get professional help.”
There was no trigger for Bobby’s depression and as he always put on a face, no one – not even his family or closest friends – guessed how terrible he was feeling.
To others looking in, the handsome model, who is signed to Scotland’s top agency Colours, looked like he was living a charmed life.
He said: “I started to feel down when I was 14. I got really angry at myself for feeling that way as I had no reason to be depressed – I had the best parents in the world, brilliant friends and wanted for nothing.
“The worse I felt, the guiltier I became. I felt mean and self-indulgent and would beat myself up about it all the time.
“No one knew how I was feeling as I
kept my emotions hidden and put on a face. To the outside world I was just an easy-going teenager.
“I still went out with my pals and acted the same way round the house as I always had. No one knew the torment I was going through on the inside.”
Bobby was so good at covering up his feelings that his parents and brother didn’t even realise he had attempted to take his own life just after the Bells on