WILL MAKE SURE HE NEVER ATTEMPTS SUICIDE AGAIN
January 1, 2015, until he told themm nearly a year later.
Recalling that night, he said: “I wrote a message apologising to my familyily and made it the screensaver on my phonehone so they would be able to find it.
“After taking the tablets, I startedrted to feel ill really quickly and passed out on the couch.
“When my parents came home, my dad assumed I was drunk and put me to bed.
“I woke up late that afternoonon and realised no one had any idea whatat I had just done. I deleted my screensaverver and made the decision not to tell anyonee what had happened.
“For the next 10 months I continuednued to battle the way I was feeling. I thoughtught about killing myself again but I neverever made another attempt.”
In the run-up to Christmas 2015,15, Bobby eventually broke down andnd told his mum everything. It was as the best thing he ever did.
He said: “I was standing in thee middle of the living room one night t and mum asked me if I was OK. I burst into tears and told her how awful I was feeling. “I clung to her and we both just sobbed. It felt like a massive weight had been lifted off my shoulders. I hadad been bottling everything rything up for far tooo long.
“She was really upset that I hadn’t felt able to talk to her about it but I told her I hadn’t
wanted to upsetupse or worry her and had been trying to deald with it on my own. “She was fantafantastic, as were my dad and brother. They allal encouraged me to talk aboutabo things and persuaded me to go to see a doctor.” Bobby,B who is studying fitnessfitn and health at college, was referred to a psychiatrist. He said: “They taught me that my feelings were really just thoughts.th “I realisedre I wasn’t alone and that theret are thousands of young peoplep out there who are strugglingstruggli with the same feelings. “I now know how to spot the signs and,and no matter how awful I feel todatoday, there will always be a tomorrow.tomorrow “I wish I had got professional medical helphe sooner as if I knew then what I do nnow, I would never have attempted suicide.”s Bobby has pledged to do whatever he can to helphe other young people struggling withwi depression. He said: “MMen in general don’t often talk about theirthei emotions and are good at covering upuphhow they are feeling inside, which makes themth harder to help. “You can haveha the best life in the world and stilstill feel depressed. I’ve learnt it is totatotally fine to feel this way and am now cocoping better than ever before. “My tattoo is a visible and constant reminder that I am a survivor and that others can make it too if they express their emotions and get the right professional medical help.”
BRIGHT FUTURE Bobby is signed to Colours agency UNUS UAL DESIG N