I’m getting stronger after grief of losing partner to suicide, says TV presenter
ZOE BALL said she was “getting stronger” after her partner Billy Yates’s suicide last year, but that she still struggles with moments of grief.
Cameraman Mr Yates was found dead at his home in May at the age of 40, and TV presenter Ball last week cycled more than 350 miles over five days, from Blackpool to Brighton, raising more than £500,000 for Sport Relief in a fundraiser inspired by him.
Ball told the Radio Times that while she still struggles with unsuspected moments of heartache, she is gradually feeling better.
“I’m getting stronger,” she said. “I’m a tough old cookie. My family have been through a lot.
“There are moments when you least expect it when grief catches you.
“But the main thing for me is I’ve found people who have been through this and are doing better. They’ve found some hope.
“That’s the biggest thing for me, that there is hope. Otherwise what are we doing this for?”
Ball, 47, said that she has moments “when I can’t believe any of this happened”.
“I’m in the middle of this challenge and Billy’s gone,” she said, adding: “That never leaves you.”
Ball said she knew Mr Yates had lived with depression for a long time and that she “didn’t know how to help”.
Her efforts in the challenge, which she completed to raise awareness of mental illness, will be shown in BBC One documentary Zoe’s Hardest Road Home on Wednesday, March 21.