Don’t wear cheap shoes, and other life lessons
Unrealistic expectations and cheap shoes are responsible for a lot of misery. I know. I’ve dealt with both.
I bought my first pair of high heels at a thrift shop when I was 15. My first set of unrealistic dreams arrived at precisely the same time.
It was 1972, and platform shoes, patchwork suede boots and patent leather loafers were all the rage. But the 1940s fashions were also having a comeback. Since my only income was a regular babysitting job that paid 50 cents an hour, I became an early and adept Salvation Army shopper.
The navy blue heels I bought could have been worn by the Andrews Sisters when they sang “Boogie Woogie Bugle Boy” in 1941. But they also could have been worn by Bette Midler singing the same song when it became a hit on the B-side of her single “Delta Dawn.”
I was ready to boogie. I was ready to prance. I was ready to dance.
Only, because the $1.50 shoes were at least one size too small, I could barely move in them. Forced to walk like one of those awkward animals with tiny hooves – a mouse deer, for example, or a fainting goat – I did not exactly move with a groove. I leaned against the walls for support and used both hands on the banister.
All of a sudden, I became quiet and dainty in my movements. It wasn’t a personality transformation, like where the tomboy shakes out her ponytail and becomes all feminine. I was silent and self-contained because I was in misery and in pain.
And that’s when a cute boy asked me out. The poor soul thought he was asking out a demure little creature. I, equally poor soul, tried to become one. The romance didn’t last long; personality, like murder, will out. I wanted to be shy, sweet and unassuming, but I couldn’t contain my real self any more than those shoes could contain my real feet.
Small scars from both experiences have lasted until today. But at least I learned that those who refuse to acknowledge the deleterious effects of inappropriate footwear and impracticable hopes remain in a condition of chronic, yet avoidable, distress.
Some of my brighter friends learned these lessons earlier. A former colleague learned from her mother, “Who had lived through periods of terrible poverty and thus was inclined to pinch pennies (and who) told me to allow myself to pay full price for two things: shoes and perfume. Cheap shoes and cheap perfume do a woman no good.”
Cheap shoes, even if they’re pretty, and dreams that confine you, even if they’re fashionable, will wear you out, wear you down and make you miserable if they aren’t a good fit.
It’s hard, when we’re given images of life on easy street, to imagine walking a mile in the shoes of those who live in an apparently glittering, easy-gliding world where stepping comfortably and gracefully is the norm. But much of the world is roughshod, and it’s better to toughen up than to kid yourself into believing you’re protected, supported and on solid ground even when you’re not.
I wear flat shoes with sturdy insoles these days. They’re expensive, but they aren’t glamorous and they don’t dazzle. My ambitions are much the same: realistic, sensible and grounded.
Gina Barreca is a professor of English literature at University of Connecticut.