Mom grateful her addicted daughter survived
I have two daughters, one is a heroin addict and one is not. We have started a Facebook page to raise awareness. “True Life Heroin Diaries” can be found at https://www. facebook.com/True-Life-HeroinDiaries-1494386997291627. Aug. 30 marked five months clean for my daughter with addiction. It has been hell, but we want to share our stor y to help raise awareness.
I’m not embarrassed anymore to talk about my daughter’s addiction. I was terribly embarrassed before, but that silence almost killed her. She has been to rehabilitation several times — the last time, she was near death.
She had huge abscesses on her arms from shooting needles, and they were infected almost down to the bone. She avoided seeing me when she was using because she knew I could tell.
She was in an abusive relationship with a drug dealer, and she began selling heroin also to support their habit. She would make several runs daily to the worst neighborhoods in Baltimore and was finally arrested on the day she left rehabilitation.
At 25 years old, she is pretty and smart; no one could believe that she would ever use heroin. That is my biggest warning to other parents: It happens to any of us: young, old, middle class, rich, poor, black or white.
It was incredibly hard to tell the other family members what was going on, so I kept it secret and died a little every day with her. I thought, “What will people think of me? What kind of mom must they think I am?”
Well, that was stupid because I kept getting just as sick as her when I needed to be keeping myself healthy and strong to be take care of her. This has been the most horrible experience of my life. The worrying and waiting to get the phone call — you know, “that phone call,” the one that she is gone.
Making up lies about why she never shows up for family events causes anxiety. Knowing your beautiful baby is suffering daily causes sadness, and you can do nothing at all until she has had enough.
Now, I will shout it from the roof tops: “I have a daughter who is a heroin addict!” I’m not ashamed any longer. I am a grateful mom of a heroin addict who survived.
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