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Lorna tucker went from being homeless to an accomplish­ed filmmaker.

- AS TOLD TO GISELLE AU-NHIEN NGUYEN

I ran away from home when I was 15. I didn’t want to go to school, and was really attracted to anything that seemed fun and dangerous. There was a group of older kids who would burgle shops and sell the stuff they stole, spending the money on drugs and partying, and I got in with them. That snowballed

– I started getting in trouble with the police and putting a lot of pressure on my family. I was arrested and had to go to court, and I remember that being the moment when me and one of the other kids were like, “We have to get away.” We ran away together, and befriended a couple of the younger homeless people around. As a young teenager, that was really fun – we’d drink beer all day and smoke weed, just hanging out. It wasn’t like what you’d imagine homelessne­ss to be. But then the autumn started coming on, and people who had somewhere to go started disappeari­ng. From there, it was a really steady descent into heavy drug usage.

During that time, I was approached by a woman with this wild head of hair from Select Model Management. I remember her kneeling down and asking me who I was, why I was there and why I had no home. She could clearly see that I was suffering a lot, and she gave me a card and said, “Once you sort yourself out, come see us.” Eventually, I managed to get off the streets. It made me want to do something with my life, but I didn’t quite know what. I didn’t know a woman could be a filmmaker or artist. You could go and work on an airplane serving food or work in a bar or shop – that was the sphere of what I felt I could do.

I wanted to go back to school, but none of the colleges would take me because I didn’t have any education. Someone told me to apply for an art school because you don’t need GCSE qualificat­ions for that – it’s based on talent alone – and it pricked something in my head, because I’d always been really good at drawing. I got a place and a bursary for an art school. I only managed to stay for a year, because I relapsed and found out I was pregnant, but it made me realise how much I enjoyed creating. I’d done a short course in photograph­y there, and I felt like an adventurer going out to capture something. It was very romantic and something I really loved, so that was when I decided I wanted to try and learn more about photograph­y.

After I had my daughter, I was scouted to model again. Within six months I was going to New York, and it blew my mind because it was a world I’d never dreamed existed – being bought champagne in fancy bars and having my make-up done by amazing artists. The money wasn’t great, but it was enough to be able to buy a pram for my baby and rent a flat. After about a year-and-a-half, I started getting an eating disorder and ended up relapsing back on drugs; that’s when I realised I wasn’t emotionall­y fulfilled. I knew if I carried on in that industry it wouldn’t be good for my mental health, so I decided to really throw myself into photograph­y.

I started working in a pub in East London, and this band called Unkle came in one day. I was like, “Oh, you’re in the recording studio across the road. Can I come take some pictures?” It was really good to see artists working and making and creating. They asked if I wanted to go on tour with them, so from there I started getting paid to make something, which was incredible. I went across America, photograph­ing and filming them, making little tour videos. I started watching people’s personalit­ies and realised I wanted to explore film, if I could capture the real

essence of people and what makes them tick. That tour was the moment I was like, “I’m going to be a filmmaker.”

It was at that point that Ian Astbury from British band The Cult gave me a book called Conquest by Andrea Smith, which explores the enforced sterilisat­ion of Native American women. I said to him, “I’d love to make a film about it for the rest of the world, because I didn’t know anything about this.” So he paid for me to go and do a couple of test shoots, and I met these incredible Native American women who’d suffered horrific abuse without their knowledge. I went out there once a year to film, then I’d come back to England and work to get money and equipment, and when the bands went on tour I’d go with them. That was quite a slow process.

About 10 years ago, I got a call from Josh Homme from Queens of the Stone Age. Vivienne Westwood had cornered him at a party and said, “I’ve written this rap song, can you do it?” He said yes, but asked Unkle to record it for her because they were in London – they said to me, “You should totally come and film this.”

I didn’t really know anything about her – I knew she was a famous fashion designer, but knew nothing about her past, so I went along not knowing what to expect. I remember the day so clearly: this older woman walked in with these six-inch platform shoes and I remember being struck by lightning. She was so sexy and beautiful, which we’re never told women can be as they get older. She asked who I was, where I’d come from, what I was doing. I explained the project I was working on with Native American women, Ama, and she was really interested. We spent time chatting, and the following week I got sent a t-shirt of hers with a letter saying she enjoyed the talk, thank you very much. About four years ago, I bumped into Vivienne again and she was like, “We’re doing a fashion film, so maybe you should do a pitch for it.” I wrote a piece called Red Shoes and they agreed to make it. It was a really special time for me, and through that process I got to know Vivienne a lot more; she’d tell me little anecdotes in passing about her childhood, or how hard it was when she started out on her own – those years of being in the wilderness, trying to make it work. As a young woman starting out in the world of art, I listened with my jaw dropped, so inspired by her sheer determinat­ion. That’s when I decided I wanted to make a film about her. She wasn’t into it at first, but she slowly came around to it.

I realised she wasn’t just a punk in the ’70s and ’80s – she’s actually more of a punk now. She’s always been an activist, she’s always been a punk, and what she is today is an embodiment of everything she talks about. All in all, making the film was about a four-year process from start to finish. We found out last December that we got into Sundance, and I think I almost had a panic attack. This year is the culminatio­n of everything I’ve wanted to do – two scripts I wrote a couple of years ago have been optioned. One is a story based on my time on the streets, which we’re shooting in spring next year; the other I wrote when I was in rehab, and that will happen afterwards.

I hated what I put myself through my whole life, and I really scarred myself emotionall­y. But now I realise that’s why I am who I am, and if you took any of it away, I wouldn’t be able to touch people or talk to people or work with people or empathise with people. I’m at peace with what I went through, because I’m really happy with how I am and what I’m doing now.

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