and her husband are both 37 and we always knew she might struggle to conceive naturally because she has endometriosis, yet the hardest part has been the emotional roller-coaster of hope and disappointments.
I tend to let Mandy raise the subject when she needs to. If she hasn’t rung for a week I know there’s probably bad news and that she’ll share it when she’s ready. Every time she gets a period it’s like we’re grieving for a child.
Infertility is such a foreign idea to my generation. I had four children, the first when I was 21. I’m lucky that Mandy researches everything and then passes all the information down to me. I occasionally Google infertility, but there’s so much information out there it’s hard to know what’s accurate. To be honest, I find some things too painful and prefer not to dwell on what might not be.
I know Mandy has filled in the paperwork for IVF, but isn’t ready to take that step. There’s always the question of when to stop trying, but while my daughter has hope, I will as well. I try to be realistic and trust that what’s meant to be will be.
As a mother you want to shield your child from pain, but I’ve had to accept there are some things in life you can’t control.”