Trusting God When It Feels Hard

Leeann Brown

I met my husband in 2009, and by 2010, we were married. Sure enough, we wanted to start a family and began trying to conceive. We did all the tests, and back then, we discovered that there was an issue with my husband, which we quickly resolved.

Fast forward to 2016, and we were still trying to conceive but without success. I faced many Mother’s Days without hearing the voice of a little one saying "mom" or even the patter of tiny feet.

I decided it was time to find out what was wrong. The gynecologist said, “you have fibroids and need surgery.” I declared that God would have to heal me because He made me fearfully and wonderfully, and unless He said surgery, there was no way I would go under the knife.

On May 28, 2021, I went to the bathroom for my usual quiet time with God. I opened my Bible to a verse already highlighted:

Jeremiah 30:17 - "But I will restore you to health and heal your wounds,’ declares the Lord, ‘because you are called an outcast, Zion for whom no one cares.’"

This was all the confirmation I needed to finally surrender to God’s will and receive my healing, which did not come supernaturally but through a myomectomy (surgery that removes fibroids but keeps the womb intact).

I’m grateful God kept me sane throughout that season, and although it feels hard, I'm trusting God for the blessing of the fruit of the womb. If you're believing God for something, I encourage you to trust Him too because although it may be delayed, your blessing is not denied.