Description

~Winner of the Lambda Literary Award for the best LGBT YA novel of 2017~

An unforgettable story of two girls navigating the unknowable waters of identity, millennial anxiety, and first love, from the acclaimed author of The Mystery of Hollow Places.

In Savannah Espinoza’s small New Mexico hometown, kids either flee after graduation or they’re trapped there forever. Vanni never planned to get stuck—but that was before her father was diagnosed with Huntington’s disease, leaving her and her mother to care for him.

Now she doesn’t have much of a plan at all: living at home, working as a performing mermaid at a second-rate water park, distracting herself with one boy after another.

That changes the day she meets Leigh. Disillusioned with small-town life and looking for something greater, Leigh is not a “nice girl.” She is unlike anyone Vanni has met, and a friend when Vanni desperately needs one. Soon enough, Leigh is much more than a friend.

But caring about another person threatens the walls Vanni has carefully constructed to protect herself and brings up the big questions she’s hidden from for so long.


  • Coming of Age Story: Vanni thought she had a plan to escape her hometown, but a devastating diagnosis forces her to grow up fast and decide what she truly wants.
  • Bisexual Romance: After a string of boyfriends that mean nothing, Vanni is thrown by her intense connection to Leigh, a bold new girl who challenges everything.
  • Small Town Setting: In a place everyone calls "The Trap," Vanni feels her future shrinking—until a new relationship shows her that love can bloom even in the dust of New Mexico.
  • Books for Teens About Serious Topics: A Lambda Literary Award winner, this novel tackles the realities of a hereditary illness like Huntington’s disease with honesty, heart, and hope.

About the author(s)

Rebecca Podos is the Lambda Literary Award-winning author of YA novels, including The Mystery of Hollow Places, Like Water, and The Wise and the Wicked, and co-editor of the YA anthology Fools in Love. Find her online at www.rebeccapodos.com.

Reviews

“Podos delivers an eerie debut novel that is a solid homage to mysteries and Gothic novels alike.” - School Library Journal

“Well-handled are Leigh’s genderqueer identity and Vanni’s bisexuality. The author richly and authentically describes the culture of a small New Mexico town, while welcomingly unitalicized Spanish enriches Vanni’s interactions with friends and family. A worthwhile addition to collections of contemporary romance with depth.” - Kirkus Reviews

“Vanni’s realization about her bisexuality is satisfyingly matter-of-fact, and her relationship with Leigh faces realistic teenage troubles. As much about self-discovery as it is about love, this moving coming-of-age tale is an ideal choice for fans of Nina LaCour’s We Are Okay.” - Booklist

“This book should have wide appeal for teens who feel trapped by their circumstances and family obligations.” - School Library Journal

PRAISE FOR THE MYSTERY OF HOLLOW PLACES: “This heartfelt and page-turning debut introduces readers to a whip-smart and wise heroine.” - Kirkus Reviews (starred review)

“Sharp plotting, unexpected twists, dynamic characters, and a sensitive treatment of mental illness make Podos a writer to watch.” - Booklist (starred review)

“Debut author Podos creates an engrossing mix of detective story and family story.” - Bulletin of the Center for Children’s Books (starred review)

“Wholly original with a brilliant voice and gripping plot. This book utterly captivated me.” - Jasmine Warga, author of MY HEART AND OTHER BLACK HOLES

“Debut author Podos makes capable use of believable characters and addictive clues to keep readers guessing.” - Publishers Weekly

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