ON SLAV SONGS
Do you not like to see me happy? When faced with the beauty we’ve created despite the beastly nature of our trauma, do you feel uncomfortable? Do I make you angry when I smile? Do I make you jealous when I sing the songs that were passed down to me through the deep waters of the gulf of Mexico, into the thick, murky, landscapes of Louisiana swamps, Just to reach the blood in my veins? As I stand here today Free and unchained Just like their wildest dreams told them I would be, Can you not accept that some stories are not yours to tell? Not all stories will be yours to tell Not all songs are yours to use Recreate and dismember as you choose
Don’t take away my chance to represent the women who fought for me Because Slavs never sang our African slave songs Don’t tell me that you don’t see colour Because the world still colours me black even though I know I’m more than that
Would you walk into your grandmother’s home, see her 400-year- old curtains, cut them up to make a dress without even including her in your creative process? Don’t you think she would be devastated to see Something she cared so much for re- appropriated so violently By someone who didn’t really try to research and understand the true story Behind grandmother’s curtains? But maybe I’m getting ahead of myself So allow me to take you on a journey to discover the story Behind my grandmother’s songs My great- great- grandmother held me in her bosom before I was even formed. She knew the pain I would have to face one day, just like the pain she faced in her lifetime. So, she did all she could do. She used her voice, the only thing she could use She sang me a song. It seeped deep into her body, split cracks through her bones. It sank and settled deep inside. It crossed time and space to reach me. She sang me a song. A promise that she’d always be there, like a faint call in the air, to sing me her lessons of despair Softly braiding, sneaking lullabies of wisdom into my hair. Whispering “don’t you cry for me child” because she’d never leave me lonely. That I would always have her song in my heart to soothe me She sang me a song So that I could keep it safe for her in the new world she believed would come. Refused to let them beat it out of her Even though they tried … to beat it out of her till she was numb She sang me a song That crossed hills, valleys and unknown countries, poured it into herself like a fountain, and nestled it deep into the safe soil of her body She sang me a song And now you... you come along And think it’s ok to re-appropriate a sound so pure, so strong
Vous avez dit vouloir vous approprier ces chansons... Vous avez dit vouloir vous approprier nos chansons?
Well you can’t play theatre with our stories You can’t play theatre with our pain My great-great-grandmother didn’t sing those songs in sugar cane, cotton fields Send them to me through the ears and hearts of generations for you to use them in a way that does not feature my voice In a way that does not feature my body, the only instrument that can sing her song true, Because… My grandmother looked like me and not like you Harriet Tubman looked like me and not like you
I may have held my tongue as children pipelined into prison chains after graduation I may have lost my words when a racist president was named for my nation I may have simply shed a tear while my brothers and sisters were ( and still are) being shot like quarry
But I will not hold back my poetry as privilege is used to twist, turn, tell, retell this story … our stories That can only be carried by our bodies, for only our bodies have been living them, carrying them through time and space
So, if you stumble upon a song and naively decide to make it your own without questioning the history, the present implications, and the journey of hardship that song went through before it reached your ears… please consult and converse with the only bodies that know how to sing it with authenticity and honour… because only we truly remember how She sang us a song.