Lack of contact doesn’t stop dad’s worry
Q: I’m a divorced male who was married for 25 years and had two children, now in their late 20s.
After having children, my ex-wife displayed terrible mood swings, extreme stubbornness and unreasonable, manipulative, controlling, dependent behaviour.
She couldn’t keep a job nor get along with most people. Every issue became an argument. She was never sorry for her behaviour, never forgave nor forgot.
Eventually, what appeared to be a bad psychotic break toward me and other family members made it impossible for me to stay.
My children had just graduated university and college. The divorce was very bitter (her).
I tried hard to be fair and reasonable.
There’s been no contact since we separated.
Unfortunately, my children also have had no contact with me.
She’d flatly refused going for counselling/therapy. Throughout our marriage, I saw doctors, psychiatrists, psychologists and marriage counsellors.
Their persistent advice: If she wouldn’t seek counselling with me or alone, I should leave. But I couldn’t break up my family and felt some responsibility to look after her.
I was the sole bread-winner and worried about the financial impact of divorce. I also knew sharing custody would be a living hell, so I stayed, which jeopardized my physical and mental health. I was forced to take medical retirement at 51. Throughout our marriage, I researched manic depression, bipolar disorder and schizophrenia, but her symptoms/behaviour were never a match.
Recently, friends and family who worked in psychiatric health care and knew my ex-wife said they were pretty sure she had a personality disorder. I’m worried about what effect she’s having on our children.
I’m concerned that personality disorders could be genetic and my kids could be susceptible.
Worries for Adult Kids
A: You’re still a parent and your ongoing concerns are both valid and emotionally moving.
But without regular contact nor outreach from your children, raising the possibility of their having a gene for a mental-health disorder could be very badly received, even considered harassment.
They’re adults. If they have any symptoms that they had recognized from having lived with their mom, they may already have sought some information and counselling.
You can hope so, as far more is known now about personality disorders than when you were living in the midst of emotional outbursts and difficult behaviours.
Personality disorders are mental-health disorders with enduring symptoms.
Research is easy to find at camh.ca (Canada’s Centre for Addiction and Mental Health), mayoclinic.org and nimh.nih.gov./health (National Institute of Mental Health in the U.S.).
There are different types of personality disorders, from the unstable and risky behaviour associated with Borderline Personality Disorder, to aggressive, violent, remorseless Antisocial Personality Disorder.
Whatever characteristics applied to their mother, the kids may have been deeply pained and confused to see her struggles. They may even have blamed you and had their anger about it “confirmed” by her.
Personality disorders are thought to be caused by a combination of genetic and environmental influences: i.e. genes may make someone vulnerable to developing a personality disorder and then a particular life situation (e.g. chaotic family life during childhood) may trigger the actual development of PD.
Is there any way you can reconnect with your children over your concern? It’s unlikely, unless one or both contact you for some other reason.
Still, I believe that parents of “detached” adult children should keep trying periodically to reach out to them, gently, over birthdays, special occasions, etc. to express your ongoing love and interest in them.
If they need you, they will respond. Ellie’s tip of the day Keep reaching out to “detached” adult children through sending regular signs of your caring about them.