It’s when you get better that your desire reawakens. But then everyone makes you look at the mirror. You are still fat and disabled
You are still fat and disabled. You become sad. And then depressed. Spells of decent physical health occupied by bad mental health. Till it becomes a self-repeating cycle.
In my defense, I would like to say I love myself. But probably that is going too far. The first time I proposed to a girl as a 20-year-old, she told me she liked me but didn’t love me. I think I agree with her. I like myself.
The thought of not being loved doesn’t haunt me anymore. It bothers my romantic heart sometimes. But there are so many people who can’t find love. So I go out, have fun with friends, read books, write poetry and enjoy long platonic conversations.
It’s just a few minutes every day. Probably around midnight. When my body hurts, lamenting everything that eludes it. Every touch. Every sensation. And only then it is reminded of its incompleteness. Incomplete. Yearning. Longing. It’s like a melancholic song that never ends.
The writer is a research scholar working on disability
and gender The eggplant emoji has become the internet’s go-to symbol to represent a penis. There was a brief stand-off between the eggplant and banana to see which would be the official symbol, but the aubergine prevailed.
In an article for Slate, Amanda Hess says the eggplant emoji was first designed for Japanese iPhones since their eggplants are less plump and more phallic. Now it’s even got an entry into dictionary.com also discusses how combining it with the mouth emoji, the droplet emoji and the peach emoji can represent a variety of sexual acts