Nothing I do is good enough for her

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QMy partner has suffered from depression for decades, but has only seen the doctor once – and stopped taking the prescribed medication after a few years. She will not talk to anyone or seek help professionally or from family, not even me. Covid has had a major impact on her mental health and, to be honest, her behaviour is now affecting mine. In the past I’ve been told I’m very positive and happy – I’m certainly not that now. I don’t want to go on medication myself and I’m stuck. It’s as though nothing I do is good enough for her. I try hard to get things right, but I’m not perfect – far from it. I’m always being told negative things or talked to as if I’m stupid, and when I respond I’m accused of being horrid or aggressive. This is not in my nature, but sometimes I have to defend myself. I’m criticised if I mention her behaviour and then made to feel guilty. People have commented on the way that I’m spoken to. Years ago our son asked why she was so foul to me. I really didn’t know how to respond. She doesn’t have any close friends or hobbies and seems to resent me doing things. I would like to change the dynamic, but after so many years it’s unlikely. How can it get better?

AI’m so sorry to hear this. It is a very difficult situation and one you have clearly been putting up with for years. When you ask ‘How can it get better?’ I can’t help wondering if you have had enough and want to leave.

You are obviously very unhappy. To a certain extent, you can change the dynamic by refusing to put up with your partner’s bad behaviour. Unknowingly, you’ve allowed her to set up a pattern in which she makes you responsible for her happiness. You constantly walk on eggshells and are afraid of another outburst – or of making her mental health worse. You say you try hard to get things right. Does she show the same consideration to you? Expecting perfection is unreasonable. So when she behaves badly and accuses you of being aggressive or horrid, make a stand. Leave the room if she is rude or shouts; say that you will talk when she is calmer. You could also tell her – gently but firmly – that unless she seeks help for her mental health and agrees to couples counselling, you may have to consider whether you can stay in the relationship. Explain that her behaviour is affecting your wellbeing and that you owe yourself a duty of care. She needs to accept more responsibility for her own mental health. In the current situation there is no incentive for her to change. Of course, such an ultimatum is daunting and you may worry how she will cope if you leave, but your happiness matters too. It is not enough to stay with someone because you feel sorry for them or you feel you must repeatedly fix them. So urge her to see her GP and seek counselling for yourself to help you prioritise your own needs – try iacp.ie or accord.ie for advice.

I’m always being told negative things or talked to as if I’m stupid

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