I’m still angry about the death of our daughter... I’ve never found peace
Barlow lays bare anguish over loss of stillborn baby in 2012
GARY Barlow said he is still struggling with the death of his stillborn daughter 12 years ago, branding it a bitter injustice.
The singer and his wife Dawn’s fourth child Poppy arrived in August 2012, just days before Take That were due to perform at the closing ceremony of the London Olympics.
In a rare moment of public reflection, Gary, 53, revealed he has never really been able to process the loss.
He said: “I don’t talk about this in great detail because I’m still kind of figuring it out.
“My wife’s emotions were completely different to mine. I’ve been angry for a long time, I haven’t really found peace with it yet.”
The pair, who wed in 2000 after Dawn was a dancer for Take That’s 1995 tour, also have children Daniel, 23, Emily, 21, and Daisy, 15.
Gary feared Poppy’s death could lead to him and Dawn, 54, separating but they grew closer.
He said: “Something like 95% of couples split up when something like that happens to them.
“I think it comes down to men deal with it differently than women do. My wife does far better than I do, she’s a much stronger person.”
SOLACE
The star, who penned solo song Let Me Go in Poppy’s memory, said he found some solace in his music, and every time he performs with Take That he thinks about his late daughter.
On The Imperfects podcast, Gary also revealed his previous bulimia struggles were sparked by setbacks after Take That broke up. He found himself without a record deal in 1999 while ex-bandmate Robbie Williams enjoyed huge solo success. Gary said: “I definitely turned to food as a way of checking out.
“Eating until I couldn’t feel anything. When I reached a point of size, it was uncomfortable being so big, also my wife is a very beautiful woman, I felt embarrassed.
“I couldn’t work out how to get rid of all this so I used to make myself sick.
“This went on for a couple of years and I was really good at hiding it. It wasn’t a time where I could go and see anyone but I knew it had to stop.”
Men deal with it differently. My wife does far better than I do, she is much stronger GARY BARLOW ON COPING WITH CHILD BEREAVEMENT