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“I guess I know my mum through other people’s memories of my mum.”
He clearly feels a strong connection to her all the same though.
In March, Bobby posted modelling shots on social media, with the caption: “Genes on his side, god in his heart and Goody as his guide.”
Not being around for your children is every mother’s worst nightmare, and as much as Jade tried to remain positive throughout her illness, she was obviously tortured by thoughts of the worst happening.
In November 2008, she wrote: “I keep thinking about what will happen to my boys if I am not here any more.
“Yes, they would go and live with Jeff — but even thinking about it tears me apart.
“Not because he can’t do it, but because my kids are only little and they need their mum.
Rock
“Whatever else I may be, I know I’m a bloody good mum. I am their rock.”
She continued: “They only go and see their dad every other weekend.
“I teach them manners, take them to football, tell them off if they’re naughty, and read their bedtime stories. There is no one else who can do it like I can.
“I worry if I’m not here to do it, will it be done properly?
“Will they have the right school uniform and eat up their dinners?
“Oh god — what if the worst happens and they forget me?”
She added: “Freddie is only four, so he won’t remember much.
“Bobby is a bit more grown-up and realises more is wrong.
“What if they never know just how much I love them, how very proud of them I am?”
Guiding the boys through their grief, when Jade lost her cancer battle in 2009, has been their dad Jeff.
He got his sons counselling, navigated difficult anniversaries, and all the other impossibilities of growing up without their mum.
Jeff has talked openly about how hard it’s been and the decisions he’s made along the way.
So when Bobby stood on the NTA stage and said: “This has very little to do with me, and everything to do with my dad.”
It wasn’t just Jeff wiping a tear from his eye.
It’s hard to believe weren’t thinking of Jade.
Jade who thought ‘East Angular’ was abroad and who never stopped loving her boys.
In Forever in My Heart, the acknowledgement reads: “All the royalties of this book will go to Jade’s boys, Bobby and Freddie.” viewers