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Brian died five weeks after this snap
There are times when I lie alone and cry thinking of what I’m going to miss LINDA ON THE HEARTBREAK OF KNOWING SHE IS GOING TO DIE
With Maureen and Bernie after her it easier for the people left behind,” said Linda. “I would like There You’ll Be from Pearl Harbor, sung by Faith Hill. The words couldn’t be more fitting for the moment when I’ll meet Brian again and it’s the song we played at his funeral.
“And there’s a Neil Sedaka song too, Our Last Song Together. It’s beautiful and by then it really will be our last song with my wonderful family. I hope us remaining sisters will sing together one last time before I go.
Linda – whose new autobiography From The Heart is out now – also plans to write personal notes to her loved ones to read after her death. “They’ll be the hardest letters I’ve had to write, but there’s so much I want to say,” said Linda. “I also thought about getting jewellery for the little ones for them to remember their Auntie Lin. It’s ironic because there was a time in my life when I wanted to die because I wanted to be with Brian.
“I didn’t think that life had anything for me because I’d lost the man I loved. But now my determination to live is just so intense. I’m not particularly religious, but if I pray now it is to plead with God for just a little more time. But I’m not going to let cancer stop my life.
“I have to get on with it and appreciate all that’s happening, because I don’t know how long I’ve got left.” antonia.paget@trinitymirror.com
From My Heart, by Linda Nolan, is published by Pan Macmillan on Thursday.