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Kezia and Chris Kerr appear on TV this week to talk about their pain after one of their twins was stillborn. Here is their story...

The 20-week scan was the first indication of something wrong. After a successful IVF cycle, Kezia and Chris Kerr were overjoyed at the prospect of having twins.

the scan showed twin two was growing at a much smaller rate than the first.

“We could tell by the fact the atmosphere changed there was something not right,” recalls Chris.

Kezia adds: “We were gutted and heartbroken. It was horrendous. We had no idea what could be wrong, I did a lot of crying. ”

The couple – who spoke during Baby Loss Awareness Week, highlighted by the Irish Mirror – were referred to the specialist unit at London’s UCL Hospital.

Chris says: “We were told twin two could continue to grow and might reach 500grams (1.1lb), where they would consider taking both twins out prematurely.

“Another option was for the second twin to grow at a normal pattern. And the third was they may sadly pass away.”

For two months the couple clung to hope their child wouldn’t be the one in 200 UK babies to be stillborn. They had a double buggy and had chosen names.

Kezia says: “I had hope until the day we were told she was no longer alive. Her heart was beating so how could I not have hope?”

Chris adds: “We could feel her moving around and we could feel her kicking. We were cheering her on and praying for her every night.

“We kept going for scans and each time the news was not good and our hopes started to dwindle but still we kept believing.”

On the day of her 29-week scan Kezia, a children’s community nurse, woke with “a really horrible feeling”. Her instinct, sadly, was right. At the scan, the couple were told twin two had died. Chris says: “Even though we knew it could be pointing in that direction, nothing really prepares you. We cried bucketloads.”

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