A dark night of the soul

‘There is not a life that will be lived that will not face the darkest shadow of their soul, but it’s who you become on this journey that defines your path for the future.’ I wrote those words in 2010, and both previous to that time and afterwards, I have experienced episodes of darkness that at times I could not see a way through. However, each time I emerge, I am reborn into the light, and I rejoice at the hope that I have been through the worst of my life lessons and now the path ahead must surely be clear — right? Well, I’m afraid the lessons just go deeper each time, because you are ready for them. I thought when I kicked the booze the darkest days were behind me, but for a soul on its journey through Earth, to keep evolving and growing, we soon learn that we are here for a lifetime of lessons. In the middle of a dark moment, it can be almost impossible to see the light. During many of these moments in 2019, my friend said to me, “It is always darkest before the dawn”. I held on to that quote, those words, so strongly, as I knew this depth of despair; I had been there before. As long as you continue to put one foot in front of the other and keep moving forward, you will see a new dawn, a new age, that’s meant just for you. Even though we are a collective as a people, we are on an individual soul’s journey, and to find your way, you must follow your heart. Your heart will protect you and support you, and it does this because it knows you will experience pain. To be a human at this time and learn to love in a world so full of chaos is a test indeed. The exam is a continuous one from birth until death. Your results depend on your willingness to show up for yourself and face the deepest darkest aspects of your Youniverse.