Welcome to the Dollhouse – identity crossdressing and coming out in Italy
in 1968, at the age of sixteen, I became a streetwalker. At nineteen I showed up for military service dressed as a woman with a fox fur collar: Where are you going? – they asked – You have called me
6c6rkg i;u0 Bt 6dcucrN ac 0re0 en mnha6 Nn gn ,d0e c; dnB Bt eB;aa gnmr t gd;cr or with my brother’s scooter. The first few gcB0e m0rg gn uc; 60c caa0 ;r6 uc; g;ac; 6d0ee06 ;e ; Nht i;g m;e ; N;t ;d0; en gi0d0 m;e rn B;dl0g nd he dnee6d0ee
0de N;te 6c6rkg m;rg he r gi0 0NcrrcrN I wouldn’t cross dress; then I met Lidia, min m;e e0u0r t0;de na60d gi;r B0 ;r6 eg;dg06 e0 d0gat dnee6d0eecrN mcgi icB cr his basement. The first time I was seventeen.
c6c; i;6 0;hgc ha 0t0e mic i i0 mnha6 shg i;a Bnnre ei;6nme ;r6 ;l0 a;ei0e nr hg ;aen ; sdnBcr0rg rne0 ;r6 eB;aa cBs0d 0 tions which made the gender transition diffi hag r 0 m0 mnr nhd d0gc 0r 0 m0 eg;dg06 egd00gm;alcrN ;e dnee6d0ee0de m0 mnha6 Nn gn gi0 Bcddnd ;d ;g gi0 gd;cr eg;gcnr nd ;g nhd ac0rgek inhe0e :0 6c6 nhd first client together: it was Don Cristoforo, ; sdc0eg cr gnmr 0 mnha6 g;l0 he nr gi0 0aa gnm0d d0B0B 0d tnh nha6 e00 gi0 dns0e of the bells; it was us, him and the never-fail crN dh0 Nd;ss; B;NrhB r gi0 0r6 i0 mnha6 s;t he gn acd0
The first wave of crossdressers who pros gcghg06 gi0Be0au0e cr ,d0e c; m;e ;ad0;6t ns0d;gcu0 0; ; dcyc; ;r6 nd; i;6 eg;dg06 mndlcrN cr cr gi0 -;dBcr0 r0cNi nd inn6 gine0 d0 la0ee B0r mnha6 Nn ;e ;d ;e egd00gm;alcrN cr sc;yy; nNNc; ;r6 ;aen
0gm00r sc;yy; nNNc; ;r6 sc;yy; cggndc; mi0d0 rng 0u0r sdnegcghg0e nha6 Nn 0; m;e B;du0anhe mcgi anrN anr6 i;cd acl0 ;ggt
d;un ; m;es m;ceg ;r6 00g acl0 -cr60d0aa; :cgi gi0 i0as n indBnr0e ei0 i;6 60u0a ns06 haa ;r6 en g d0;ege hg ; nu0 ;aa ei0 i;6 ; sneghd0 ;r6 ; i;hNigcr0ee gi;g B;60 he ;aa 0rucnhe i0k6 B;l0 gi0 B0r m;alcrN
t d;yt dnegcghgcnr m;erkg ; dcB0 ; mnB ;r nha6 6n cg mcginhg ;rt sdn a0B hg nd ; crossdresser it was more difficult, 0 ;he0 nr0 nha6 0 d;B06 mcgi gi0 0b he0 n B;elcrN n cBs0denr;gcnr i0 snac 0 m0d0 mndlcrN mcgi enB0 ; nBsac 0e min mnha6 sd0g0r6 gn 0 ac0rge ;r6 Nn hseg;cde gi0 snac 0 mnha6 gi0r crg0du0r0 ;r6 gi0 ; nB sac 0 mnha6 e;t gi;g i0k6 i;6 rn c60; i0 m;e mcgi ; B;r ;r6 gi;g i0 i;6 00r 60 0cu06 r nr0 e0 nr6 tnh nha6 N0g ecb Bnrgie cr sdcenr nd e ;BBcrN gi0 ac0rg :cgi gice g; gc ;g gi0 0NcrrcrN gi0t Nng ;aa n gi0B
g0d gi0 ecb Bnrgie cr o;ca gi0t i;6 gn 0r 6hd0 gid00 t0;de n es0 c;a ehdu0caa;r 0 hg gi;g m;erkg ; sdn a0B ;g gi0 -;dBcr0 mi0d0 gi0d0 ;ad0;6t m;e ; nrg0eg n Bc dn dcBc r;acgt ;r6 sdnegcghgcnr mic i mnha6 sdng0 g gi0B gi0t nha6 egcaa sdnegcghg0 gi0Be0au0e cr dnrg n gi0cd inhe0e ;r6 mi0r gi0 snac 0 ;B0 dhr hseg;cde i0 sdn a0Be eg;dg06 mi0r ;g gi0 0r6 n gi0cd e0rg0r 0 gi0t
;B0 hs mcgi ;rngi0d nr0 gn N0g dc6 n gi0B they would send them into confinement, like gi0t 6c6 mcgi dcBcr;ae :i0r he tnhrN0d nr0e ;B0 cr ;g gi0 0r6 n gi0 cbgc0e gi0 most you could get was a fine and public ihBcac;gcnr i0t mnha6 g;l0 tnh gn gi0 sn ac 0 eg;gcnr mi0d0 gi0t mnha6 l00s tnh gi0 mina0 rcNig gn d06; g ; Bcrhg0 mi0d0 gi0t mnha6 60e dc 0 0b; gat inm tnh m0d0 6d0ee06 ;r6 mi;g lcr6 n B;l0 hs tnh i;6 nr angi crN ein0e ; 0eendc0e ;l0 a;ei0e gi0 nand n tnhd 0t0ei;6nm ;r6 n tnhd acsegc l r gi0 0r6 tnhk6 N0g ;r ;6Bcrcegd;gcu0 00 nd dnee 6d0eecrN mic i nha6 d;rN0 0gm00r
;r6 acd0 i0d0 m;erkg ; m;t gn N0g ;m;t dnB gi0 ; he0 n snm0d tnh e;m gi0 snac 0 ;r6 tnh m0d0 ;d 0rnhNi tnh nha6 g;l0 n tnhd i00ae ;r6 eg;dg dhrrcrN inscrN gn 0 ane0 0rnhNi gn ; 6nnd gi;g tnh nha6 an l tnhde0a 0icr6 hg c gi0t Nng tnh there were no justifications. In those days, snac 0B0r m0d0 dh0a g0ddndcynde g gi0 gcB0
; dcyc; 0; ;r6 nd; i;6rkg hr60dNnr0 ehdN0dt t0g hg 0; i;6 eg;dg06 g;lcrN ind Bnr0e gn Ndnm i0d d0;ege ei0 i;6 ;am;te m;rg06 gn 0 nB0 .u; gi0 r;B0 ei0 he06 after the sexual rectification. Fabrizia had cBsa;rge 6nr0 0k6 g;l0 ; nmke ahrN hg cg ;r6 shg cg 0gm00r ice gicNie ecBha;gcrN gi0 0B;a0 e0b i0 snnd ac0rge m0d0 h lcrN ; nmke ahrN mcginhg 0u0r d0;acycrN cg
i0 -;dBcr0 r0cNi ndinn6 i;6 ;am;te
00r haa n sdnegcghg0e uc; ,ndNnr6cn m;e em;dB06 0u0dt inB0 inhe06 ; 6ny0r n gi0B 0; i i;6 i0d dnnB ;r6 enB0 m0d0 gdh0 eahBe ina0e dngi0ae i0 r0cNi nd inn6 m;e gi0cde ;r6 tnh i;6 gn 0 ; d;c6 mica0 m;alcrN t ;e ; g00r;N0d m;e e ;d06 Bte0a -dnee6d0ee0de nha6rkg ;r6 6c6rkg m;rg gn 0 cr gi0 e;B0 egd00ge rng 0 ;he0 gi0t m0d0 e ;d06 n nhde0 i0 gid00 n gi0B nha6 g;l0 ;d0 n gi0Be0au0e ;r6 sdnegcghg0e ;g gi0 gcB0 m0d0 nBsa0g0at cNrnd;rg gi0t m0d0rkg 0u0r ; a0 gn es0;l g;ac;r i0d0 m0d0 B;rt onl0e nu0d gi0cd Bceg;l0e g gi0 0NcrrcrN ; dcyc; i;6 e0g ga06 cr -;e; 0dNcr0 cr uc; ,ndNnr6cn
0; egcaa acu06 mcgi i0d s;d0rge cr uc nan dc0rg;a0 ;r6 nd; m;e ; d00 escdcg nnr they moved to five Vicolo Rossovera, which would become the Dollhouse. Having a fixed sa; 0 gn mndl ;r6 m0a nB0 ac0rge m;e Bh i Bnd0 nB ndg; a0 ;aa gi0t i;6 gn 6n m;e eg;r6 nhgec60 gi0 dnrg 6nnd ;r6 m;cg :ndl crN cr gi0 06dnnB ;aanm06 tnh gn ;el nd Bnd0 Bnr0t :nd6 n Bnhgi i;6 creg;rgat d0;g06 ; Bnu0B0rg ;r6 mcgi gi0 ;ddcu;a n nhd e0 nr6 N0r0d;gcnr gi0 mina0 hca6crN m;e n hsc06 t dnee6d0ee0de
The Dollhouse was a slum of five crum
acrN egnd0te mcgi nreg;rg dhcre ;r6 m;g0d seepages. To us it was fine because the rent m;e anm 0gm00r gn acd0 nd gi0 Bnd0 es; cnhe dnnBe r cge haa inhe0