I want to expose my gay ex-lover

Dear Pastor, I am a 25-year-old guy, and I have a confession to make. In 2017, an article came out about someone from the community of Summerfield who was HIV-positive. I was the one who wrote it. I won’t say my name because a lot of people know me. I am gay. A particular guy and I had a sexual and romantic relationship. We were lovers, then it became something else. It started off when I went to borrow his jersey and returned it.

One night, I made a pass at him because I felt the tension between us. We would see each other some nights, but whenever I saw him in the town, he would ignore me. He was involved with girls as well, so it was not obvious that he was gay. But I didn’t like that, so I confronted him about it. He said: “People highly respect me on the road, so I can’t let it be known that I am gay. This is Jamaica, and they say gay men should be dead. Furthermore, I can’t act as a gay man among my friends.”

He got a girl pregnant, and he has sexually abused another girl. This guy is the worst. I have kept his secrets long enough. I used to give him money, clothes and shoes, but I have stopped. He threatened to expose me for being gay, and that is why I want to expose him first. He knows that I am gay, and he is trying to frame others just to hide his identity.

I want everyone to know that I loved him and he hurt me. He did a lot for me, but I don’t want to discuss that because it is personal. He doesn’t have HIV for a fact, but he is definitely gay. I had to move from the community because of him. No guy wants to look at me. Did I do something bad, or is it him?

Anonymous