I want to ex­pose my gay ex-lover

The Star (Jamaica) - - PASTOR -

Dear Pas­tor, I am a 25-year-old guy, and I have a con­fes­sion to make. In 2017, an ar­ti­cle came out about some­one from the com­mu­nity of Sum­mer­field who was HIV-pos­i­tive. I was the one who wrote it. I won’t say my name be­cause a lot of peo­ple know me. I am gay. A par­tic­u­lar guy and I had a sex­ual and ro­man­tic re­la­tion­ship. We were lovers, then it be­came some­thing else. It started off when I went to bor­row his jersey and re­turned it.

One night, I made a pass at him be­cause I felt the ten­sion be­tween us. We would see each other some nights, but when­ever I saw him in the town, he would ig­nore me. He was in­volved with girls as well, so it was not ob­vi­ous that he was gay. But I didn’t like that, so I con­fronted him about it. He said: “Peo­ple highly re­spect me on the road, so I can’t let it be known that I am gay. This is Ja­maica, and they say gay men should be dead. Fur­ther­more, I can’t act as a gay man among my friends.”

He got a girl preg­nant, and he has sex­u­ally abused an­other girl. This guy is the worst. I have kept his se­crets long enough. I used to give him money, clothes and shoes, but I have stopped. He threat­ened to ex­pose me for be­ing gay, and that is why I want to ex­pose him first. He knows that I am gay, and he is try­ing to frame oth­ers just to hide his iden­tity.

I want ev­ery­one to know that I loved him and he hurt me. He did a lot for me, but I don’t want to dis­cuss that be­cause it is per­sonal. He doesn’t have HIV for a fact, but he is def­i­nitely gay. I had to move from the com­mu­nity be­cause of him. No guy wants to look at me. Did I do some­thing bad, or is it him?

Anony­mous

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