Hardie: My drugs ban shame
Kilted Kiwi John Hardie’s motivation to rebuild his career and reputation after a drug ban is one many will understand – the desire to make his parents proud again, to give something back to those who have always stood by him.
Born and raised in New Zealand, Hardie converted to Scotland’s cause through a Scottish grandmother and on the back of a successful spell at Edinburgh as an openside flanker with the foraging skills to make himself a nuisance at any breakdown. He was a regular in the Scotland side, excelling at the World Cup in 2015.
Things were good, the decision to leave the family farm 95km south of Queenstown to move to Europe was a success. He could not have been happier.
Then came the moment that threatened everything. A night out, an allegation that he had been seen taking cocaine in an Edinburgh bar. There was a disciplinary hearing and a three-month ban followed, even though he had not failed a drug test.
Hardie felt like an outcast. Through it all, the thing that hurt him most was the shame and regret he had caused those back home who loved him most. It still bites, more than a year later.
‘‘It did cross my mind that I’d be seen as damaged goods,’’ says Hardie.
‘‘You always have those sorts of things in the back of your mind, but you have to remember that you have done a lot of things in your career that had a positive impact.
‘‘It was a really difficult time for those close to me. Personally, it made me a better person. It made me not take things for granted. I’ve come out of it with a different outlook on life.
‘‘It’s always going to be there in the background. It’s going to be there when people do a search of my name on the internet. I know for my parents it’s hard, because whenever they read something in the paper it’s, John Hardie . . . something, something. It’s around those lines.
‘‘They don’t like that, but like me, they’ve just got to accept it. I’ve got to go back out on the rugby field and make them proud and reinforce the fact that I’ve moved on. I want to make my mum and dad proud again. They have always loved watching me play rugby and I want to give them that pleasure again.’’
Hardie, who played for the Highlanders from 2010-2015, returned to the Edinburgh side at the end of his ban last year, but he was tarnished by the scandal. He missed the Six Nations, lost his place in the Scotland squad and left the Scottish capital in the summer when his contract was not renewed.
The 30-year-old had no idea what
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the future held. A summer move to Clermont was ruined by a back injury and the French club declined to sign him – another month out of the game, with the suffocating fear he would not find another club.
It put things into perspective. If he got another chance, if someone was willing to take a risk, he would seize it. That was when Newcastle stepped in.
An injury to captain Will Welch opened a slot for a flanker and Hardie was back doing what he loved. This week, the Falcons announced they have agreed to extend the contract he signed to the end of the season for another two years.
‘‘Newcastle have given me a really good opportunity and they have backed me,’’ Hardie says.
‘‘I spent the summer in Clermont. I lost a bit of time, but