Woman’s Day (New Zealand)

Shorty star Courtenay tells ‘MY BATTLE WITH BINGE EATING’

Courtenay Louise reveals how returning to Aotearoa ended her painful struggle with an eating disorder


Sitting in front of a mirror at New Zealand Fashion Week eight years ago, former model Courtenay Louise looked the picture of beauty, but inside, the Shortland Street actress felt worthless.

“I’d left the house feeling really excited, but when I got to the venue and saw all the others girls, I suddenly felt huge,” recalls Courtenay, 28, who plays model Monique Strutter on the TVNZ 2 drama. “I remember just hating myself. I felt I didn’t deserve to be there. It was the beginning of a long eating-disorder journey.”

Today, Auckland-based Courtenay has overcome the devastatin­g illness, which saw her spiral through starvation and over-exercise, to binge eating and purging.

“I want to share my story because there are so many other people going through this, especially in a time when social media is shoving edited bikini photos down people’s throats,” she tells Woman’s Day.

“I’ve seen how truly consuming and isolating eating disorders can be. I hope people who are struggling with body image can read this, know they’re not alone and hopefully muster up the courage to ask for help.”

Growing up, Courtenay was a confident kid who was often compliment­ed on her petite frame. “I could hear the envy in their voices, which gave me the

‘I was showered with unconditio­nal love and I felt so cared about’

mentality I needed to be skinny,” she recalls, adding that she could eat whatever she liked without putting on weight, which adults warned would catch up on her one day.

“That was tattooed in my brain,” shares Courtenay. “At 17, I was crying in my room because I felt uncomforta­ble in my clothes. I didn’t want to go out because, with puberty, my body had suddenly gone from a ruler to having curves. After all those comments, being skinny was my identity.”

When Courtenay left school at 18, she spent a couple of years modelling while she saved to study acting in Australia. “I remember doing a shoot where the photograph­er said there was a big size difference between another model and me. It was so painful and embarrassi­ng. By then, it’d become really important in my life to look a certain way.”

As well as decreasing what she ate, Courtenay spent endless hours at the gym. “People thought I didn’t care about food, but I was obsessed with it. My eating disorder evolved as I found new ways to become skinny. I went to restrictio­n, then binge eating and over-exercising.”

Bingeing would see Courtenay lose control for two-hour periods in which she ate anything in sight.

“Afterwards, I had so much self-hate. I’d restrict food for days before a photoshoot, then the night before the shoot, I’d crave food and binge. Then I’d freak out, do an intense workout at 11pm and turn up to the shoot feeling absolutely awful. Bingeing ended my modelling.”

In 2017, Courtenay made the move to Australia, where she studied drama in Sydney and Melbourne. She laughs, “I thought I’d be on Home And Away any moment, but acting is a hard industry to break into and I hit a really low point in my life.”

Her eating disorder evolved again and she began throwing up after bingeing. “That’s when I hit rock bottom.

I was isolated, ashamed and powerless. It was a vicious cycle I had no control over.”

Every day, Courtenay would wake up telling herself she absolutely wouldn’t purge, only to fall victim to the cycle by 10am. “But one day, I was so upset and realised I needed help, so I reached out to an eating-disorder clinic,” she recalls. “The woman asked what made me happy and the common theme was how much I missed my family.”

Later that day, Courtenay spoke to a friend who said the Kiwi acting industry was booming. Within a month, she flew home and, a day later, was signed by an agent. She grins, “I thought I’d be living with this eating disorder the rest of my life, but when I was at home on the farm, I was showered with unconditio­nal love and I felt so cared about. I healed.”

Courtenay’s close relationsh­ip with her mum Charmaine was the key, along with being around nature, keeping a gratitude journal, yoga and meditation. “I was eating healthy meals, waking up early and spending time with people I love,” says Courtenay, who is now engaged to her partner of seven years, business consultant Chris Read. “These healthy habits taught me to love myself again. I started to feel free and in control. I haven’t punished my body for two years.”

When she was initially offered the role of Monique on Shorty, it was a dream come true, but she admits she was worried about playing a model.

“I still have those self-doubts and my first thought was that I wasn’t skinny enough. But then I thought, ‘Screw that – I’m going to work so hard and kill this role!’ I did that, which I’m proud of, and I’m still going.”

Ashock new report in a French publicatio­n claims Princess Charlene of Monaco is being paid millions by husband Prince Albert to remain by his side.

Voici magazine alleges Albert, 64, has signed an “ultra-con dential contract” promising to pay his wife $18 million a year to continue performing her royal duties.

But unnamed friends of the royal couple have strenuousl­y denied the claim. A source told Page Six, “Of course she has a generous pre-nup, but Albert doesn’t have to pay her to stay.

“After being away for so long during her illness, Charlene is

‘It would make sense for her to try to secure her own income’

so happy to be back with Albert and the kids. They spend every weekend at their country place. Albert is fully supportive of Charlene and is also helping her with her charities.”

After a year out of the public eye, Charlene made her first sudden public reappearan­ce with her husband of 11 years and their seven-year-old twins, Prince Jacques and Princess Gabriella, at the E-Prix in Monte Carlo on 30 April.

Then she posed again just days later with her family at the Saint Devote Rugby Tournament on 7 May.

“Great day at St Devote Rugby,” Charlene, 44, wrote on Instagram alongside pictures of the event. “God bless you all.”


Paris Match Belgium made similar claims. “Prince Albert would himself pay a tidy sum to the princess so that she

appears at his side at public events,” they revealed.

Indeed, another source points out that the Monaco royals don’t receive a salary and Charlene may need the money.

“Of course the princess enjoys huge perks, but ready cash is not guaranteed,” says an insider of the mother-oftwo, who has been battling a mystery illness that saw her hospitalis­ed for four months in Switzerlan­d late last year.

“It would certainly make sense for Charlene to try to secure her own guaranteed income.”


The palace is yet to comment on the contract scandal, but earlier this year, Albert claimed that Charlene

– who spent most of last year in her native South Africa, away from her kids and husband – was “doing much better”.

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Life is great with fiancé Chris.
As model Monique on Shorty. Life is great with fiancé Chris.
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Charlene cried on her wedding day, after reportedly running away three times in the lead-up.
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The South African princess has only just rejoined public life after a long illness.

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