CAPSULES COLOURS OF LIFE

Sometimes you truly wonder... You climb the ladder of life one step at a time and every step of the way a sign pops up mocking your reverie...”satisfaction guaranteed” ..... but emptiness continues to gnaw at your soul with no succour in sight.

You gather yourself together and refuse to allow the thorns strewn on your path to hurt you but still your soul screams, your heart shivers, your spirit pulsates.

Why do we wake up at sunrise, giving the day our best shot till dusk, and still fall flat on our faces at sunset.

We cradle our dreams in our arms, sometimes we gather the dust, sometimes we birth and nurture it, but still that emptiness gnaws, in success o, in failure o, we continue to yearn for that much talked about elixir of life ....

We ponder disturbed, wondering what the future holds, how to navigate without becoming collateral damage, how to escape the ballistic missiles of foes and the friendly fire of friends..

Sometimes we are “landed” slaps from every side, and with disfigured faces we trudge on believing that “tomorrow e go better” wetin no kill man go make am strong sebi, hmmmm, “ebelebe”... like young Olive often says ..... the “e go better one day syndrome” rankles sometimes because that one day may just never come, the bullet fed my brother as he struggled to “better” his lot is a clear indicator of the fact that the morrow may just never come ......... he laid in his pool of blood, dreams dashed and hope shattered, dead, he clung to life ..... but death refused that “e go better one day” sing song ...... hmmmm, and as if that was not enough, his best friend followed three months later, he slept never to wake up again, so forgive me when I refuse to fall into the “e go better one day” default mode.

That one day needs to be NOW as tomorrow is not promised. We give our hearts to faith our strength to hope but still we wander in wonder seemingly defeated. Life just bounces one like a ball sometimes, passing the goal post missing the point, it really gets bizarre even when you flex in faith.

Many resort to various toys to fill that “unending emptiness” but alas the more you see the less it means, with every answer comes new questions ....... what then is the point to it all, surely not the next car, next house, next realised ambition, it just does not fill the void...

Then one day while rummaging through your mind, you find “you” amidst the “scatterdness” of it all, in the dust of your dreams, you find “you” and you connect with “the One” who sent you forth, In that “true” connection you find comfort, you find succour .... in pain you’re birth, in the furnace you’re polished, in grime you’re cleansed .... no experience is useless as it syncs you to the lessons , life lessons learnt in the chaos. but alas, why does it have to be this complex ..

In breaking free from the chains that hold you down, you find life, the storms no longer faze as it is just some loud distant noise, now you get it .... you are free to be you,

but “eooowwww” this world enh, sabi sabi too do am o, I tell you .....

We must not lose the beauty in the ambiance of this journey because of the vicissitudes. We must cherish our “journey mercies” and form a “sincere partnership” with “the ONE” who has brought us thus far, so yeah, tomorrow go better, but live today like it is that tomorrow and make it all that you want it to be.