Pulse survivors worry about future
ORLANDO, Florida—A week has passed since the Orlando nightclub shooting that killed 49 club patrons and the funeral processions are wrapping up, but survivors and victims’ families say they realize the nightmare will live on long after the world’s attention fades.
Jeannette McCoy made it out of the Pulse nightclub alive on June 12 as gunman Omar Mateen continued his shooting spree that also wounded and maimed 53 others before he died in a hail of police gunfire.
McCoy said the love and support could only do so much to help. It’s a temporary balm, she said, and she worried that while life may return to normal for some people after the world’s attention moves on, it won’t for Orlando’s LGBT community.
‘So traumatizing’
“All of this has been so traumatizing,” she said. “The way that our community has been impacted, it’s just so unfortunate. We have so many wonderful lives that have been lost. When we look at all these crosses, and all these faces, all these stories, it hurts. It hurts so much.”
On Saturday, across from Cathedral Church of St. Luke, where Christopher Andrew Leinonen’s funeral was held, hundreds lined the street holding “We Support You” and other signs.
Brandon Wolf was with the 32year-old Leinonen during the carnage. The 27-year-old Wolf, who managed to make it out alive, said Leinonen changed his life.
“He looked me in the eyes that night and did what he always did, he said ‘I love you,’ Wolf said. “That was his lasting message to us, ‘I love you.”’
He called Leinonen “my oncein-a-lifetime person. He eased my pain when I was hurting, he laughed my worst jokes.”
Wave of support
The wave of support for shooting victims and survivors continued unabated on Saturday.
Around Orlando, people prayed on the street and left balloons, flowers, pictures and posters have been left to honor the victims.
Dozens of people waited up to three hours at Realm Tattoos to get one of the recently drawn “One Pulse” tattoos etched into their skin.
The tattoos are free, but people are encouraged to leave a donation for the victims, which will be distributed by Southern Nights, another Orlando nightclub.
Jonathan Betancourt, 36, the shop’s owner, said he was surprised at how fast the community came together in such a short time.
Too numb
“We love to tattoo. This is what we live for. Come in, show your love,” Betancourt said. “You always got to pay it forward. This is my way to pay it forward.”
Still, family members of those killed know the grief and anger they’re feeling is just beginning. They’ve been too numb this week to really feel much of anything since the massacre.
And they say it’s been especially tough for them to see constant images of Mateen’s face on television.
“I’m still in a state of shock so the anger and hatred for Chris’ killer has not fully kicked in,” said Mark Bando, Leinonen’s father, who is a retired Detroit police officer.
“Those of us who have to go on living our lives without Christopher can surely feel sorry for ourselves but the real tragedy is Christopher’s future has been taken from him,” Bando added.