Anorexic saved by varsity PLUS Strange tales
A UNIVERSITY student, who struggled with anorexia since she was 12, shares her story.
ATHINA CRILLEY, 22, went down a negative spiral when at the age of 12 she began wanting to lose weight and look thinner, which led to a painful battle with anorexia when her weight dropped to just 34 kilograms.
At the age of 12 Athina was a UK size 12, and she became more body conscious the older she got.
What started as wanting to shed a little bit of weight quickly became more of an unhealthy obsession for Athina. Between the age of 13 and 19 she had to be hospitalised a total of five times, with her last two hospitalisations, aged 18 and 19, in specialist eating disorder units.
At her lowest weight Athina weighed just 34kg and was a UK size zero at the age of 16. But now she’s a much healthier 51.2kg, and a UK size eight.
Athina overcame her anorexia when she went to university. She had spent the previous six years of her life isolating herself and focusing so much of her concentration on food and calorie intake, that when she got to university she wanted to make a new name for herself and relish in the fun of freshers.
“I was slightly overweight as a 12-year-old, not massively overweight but I was a UK size 12, and I became more body conscious as you do around that age,” explains Athina. “So, I decided I wanted to lose a bit of weight to maybe get to around a UK size eight, and that escalated very quickly into something more.” She says, “Every day was a constant battle with myself. I felt guilty if I gave in and ate more than I usually allowed myself or I didn’t exercise for as long as usual. But I was also frustrated because I knew that this wasn’t how I wanted to live my life. I became very introverted due to having little energy and I was feeling so tired and drained all of the time. This resulted in many of my ‘friends’ not really bothering with me anymore. I found it difficult to concentrate on anything at all apart from food, which I thought about 24/7.”
Athina adds, “These things, along with the guilt I felt every day and the worrying about food, exercise and my body, led me to being diagnosed with depression and anxiety, things that still affect me to this day. Alongside the mental side of it, the physical side effects of rapid weight loss and malnutrition included thin hair, weak nails, dry skin, feeling extremely cold and having poor circulation. I bruised very easily and lost my periods as well. Because of what Iput my body through for so many years, I now have irreversible osteoporosis in my hip and spine. I was hospitalised five times during it all — at ages 13, 14, 16, 18 and 19.The last two visits were in specialist eating disorder units.”
After many hospitalisations, Athina wanted to change her life for the better and she didn’t want to be controlled by the eating disorder any longer. When she went to university to study biochemistry in 2016
‘EVERY day was a constant battle with myself. I felt guilty if I gave in and ate more than I usually allowed myself or I didn’t exercise for as long as usual.’
the new environment encouraged her to change the mindset she had been stuck in since she was 12 as she wanted to be able to enjoy her new lifestyle. “I cannot express how much overcoming anorexia has changed my life. I am happier, healthier and stronger,” she says, adding, “I had so many ups and downs throughout the years, but the final steps to overcome anorexia once and for all came when I had more social opportunities. When I
The physical side effects of rapid weight loss
started my first year of and malnutrition included thin hair, weak nails,
university I didn’t want dry skin, feeling extremely cold and having poor
to be the weird girl who circulation
stayed in and didn’t speak to anyone, so I forced myself to go out and include myself in events.” Athina adds, “As I began going out more and being more social, anorexia kind of got pushed to the side. I got a boyfriend a few months later and having someone there for me through thick and thin really helped me to feel better about myself. I began to feel less like anorexia, food and exercise was the be all and end all.” Athina continues, “Slowly but surely recovery became more of a reality than a dream and without even realising, anorexia was no longer a part of my life. Physically, every part of my body has improved. My bones are no longer protruding, my hair is no longer thin and dry, my nails are much stronger and my body aches less. Anorexia affects every part of the physical body and mind, so recovery has improved every aspect of my being. I’m now super happy with my body. I enjoy food and I allow myself to eat basically anything I want. My life is so much less restricted now and it feels amazing. The most difficult part of recovery was trying to change my obsessive thoughts about calorie counting, food tracking and obsessive exercise. People around me always say how proud they are of me to have overcome such a terrible illness, and that I’m so strong for it.” Since recovering, Athina has found her passion for weight training, which she now does four to five times a week, allowing her to gain healthy weight and become stronger. She has shared her inspiring recovery on Instagram in the hopes of inspiring other people who want to recover who might not think it’s possible. “My first question to anyone suffering who asks me how I got better is to say ‘where do you see yourself in five years?’. Most people won’t include anorexia in their future, so I say, ‘if anorexia isn’t part of your future, what are you going to do to ensure that?’” she says. “It’s important to start making changes, small or large, or you will be stuck in this anorexia cycle forever. Only you can change your thought process and overcome the awful illness.”
To find out more about Athina’s recovery journey, check out her Instagram page @athinaafit