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An addict wanted her story told, so her mother wrote it

A long and tragic struggle with a message for fellow-sufferers


CASEY Marie Schwartzmi­er was feisty. She was outspoken and smart. And, at age 20, she died after a long struggle with addiction.

That is the portrait painted in her frank and revealing obituary, which was penned by her mother, Michelle. The candid obit offers an affectiona­te descriptio­n of the daughter Schwartzmi­er lost, and speaks in clear and honest terms about the addiction that she faced.

“Casey never wanted to be defined only by her addiction and mistakes, she was so much more than that,” the obituary says. “She made it clear if she was to ever pass as a result of it, she wanted people to know the truth with the hope that honesty about her death could help break the stigma about addicts and get people talking about the problem of addiction that is taking away so many young lives.”

Casey was a cheerleade­r and a dancer, her mother said. She could always make you laugh. She looked out for her little brother, and took pride in everything he did. She had big dreams for her future.

“She was beautiful. I know, I’m a biased opinion, I’m her mother. But she was beautiful.”

When Casey was in high school, Schwartzmi­er said, “that’s when a lot of her problems popped up,” and she began to show signs of addiction. And she was open about her problems, both in personal conversati­ons and on social media.

“If she saw somebody else struggling, or they would put a post on Facebook about needing help, she was the first one to respond and put a hand out and say, go to rehab, do this, do it for yourself.” Schwartzmi­er would tell Casey she was in the same spot. And Casey would respond that she realised, that, but she wanted those who were struggling to feel support.

The obituary, Schwartzmi­er said, came out of a casual conversati­on she had with her daughter. Casey had sent her a link to an obituary she’d seen on Facebook. It was someone writing about their deceased child, who had struggled with addiction, too.

“She said that ‘I thought of you as soon as I saw it, because I could see you writing an amazing obituary.’” “And she kind of laughed. She said: ‘I could see you doing this.’”

Schwartzmi­er asked Casey why, and if that was something she’d even want.

“She said absolutely,” Schwartzmi­er said. “She said: ‘I would want that.’ She said, ‘I would want you to tell them my story.’ She said: ‘Because when I read this, it helps me, so I think it could help someone else.’”

Schwartzmi­er agreed to write the obituary. Not long after that, Casey suffered an apparent overdose. Results are pending, Schwartzmi­er said, but her daughter was found with a needle and heroin.

“That was her biggest addiction,” Schwartzmi­er said. “A drug addict will do a lot of different things, but that was the worst, obviously.”

Here is what her mother wrote after her death:

“Casey isn’t just another statistic or just ‘another one gone too soon,’ she was a great heart with a bright future and a gift that the world lost and can never be replaced. So the best way to honour Casey is for people who read this or knew her to think twice before you judge an addict.”

And: “She was very open about her struggles and now is not the time to change that. This strong attitude with a fierce drive and loving beautiful heart that wanted to help other addicts even in death is one of the many things that she can be defined by, not her addiction.”

And: “Casey believed strongly in second chances, maybe because she craved another chance for herself and other addicts, so she donated her life-saving organs to give someone else, a second chance at life. That was Casey: this amazing woman should be remembered for this and not her mistakes.”

Casey lived in Ross Township, which is in Allegheny County, Pennsylvan­ia. Her obituary describes her as “a beautiful, intelligen­t child of the suburbs” who fell into the grips of addiction.

In Allegheny County, a story like Casey’s has played out again and again. In October the county saw more than 400 opioid overdose deaths in 2015. “There is an opioid overdose epidemic in the US, and Allegheny County is not immune,” county officials said in a July 2016 report.

In September, Pennsylvan­ia Governor Tom Wolf addressed the state’s opioid epidemic, calling it “a public health crisis, the likes of which we have not before seen.”

“Every day we lose 10 Pennsylvan­ians to the disease of addiction,” he said. “This disease does not have compassion, or show regard for status, gender, race, or borders. It affects each and every Pennsylvan­ian, and threatens entire communitie­s throughout our commonweal­th.”

Casey was in and out of several rehab facilities before her death, her mother said, and she had participat­ed in Narcotics Anonymous. Ultimately, none of those efforts would work. Before her death, she was set to return to rehab in California.

For Christmas, Casey built her mother a memory box, her mother said. She painted it and bedazzled it, like a little kid.

“She said: ‘I don’t know if I’m too old for this, but you always said that you loved the homemade gifts the best,’”

In that box, Casey left a letter.

“And in that letter, she talked about how she just wanted to make us proud again.”

Her daughter wrote that she had been depressed over the past year, “thinking that she’d never get away from this.”

Casey said she was going to go to California, though, and had hope.

“And the last thing she said in that letter is: ‘I want this to be the last Christmas you’ll ever be sad,’” Schwartzmi­er said.

“Because she knew I was scared, she knew I was upset. That was Casey.

“Right before it happened, she just was still thinking of other people.” – Washington Post

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Casey Schwartzmi­er ... feisty and smart.

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