Is Oscar the world's worst boyfriend?
THE FIGHTS: January 19 Steenkamp: There are a lot of things that could make us feel like shit. Pistorius: I’m just very honest.
Steenkamp: I won’t always think before I say something, just appreciate I’m not a liar.
Pistorius: I know, it was just when you got back from Tropica [a reality TV show filmed in Jamaica in which Steenkamp took part] you made it seem like you smoked weed once. I don’t know if you took other things.
Steenkamp: I’m sorry if it upset you, it wasn’t my intention. Pistorius: I do appreciate it, I could never be with someone who was [a liar].
Steenkamp: Me neither. January 27
Steenkamp: Today was one of my best friends’ engagements and I wanted to stay longer. I was enjoying myself but it’s over now. You have picked on me incessantly since you got back from CT [Cape Town] and I understand that you are sick but it’s nasty. I was not flirting with anyone today. I feel sick that u suggested that and that u made a scene at the table and made us leave early. I’m terribly disappointed in how the day ended and how u left me. We are living in a double-standard relationship where u can be mad about how I deal with stuff when u are very quick to act cold and offish when you’re unhappy. Every 5 seconds I hear how u dated another chick . . . yet you get upset if I tell ONE funny story with a long-term boyfriend. I do everything to make u happy and to not say anything to rock the boat with u. You do everything to throw tantrums in front of people . . . I can’t get that day back. I’m scared of u sometimes and how u snap at me and of how u will react to me. You make me happy 90% of the time and I think we are amazing together but I am not some other bitch you may know trying to kill your vibe. I am the girl who let go with u even when I was scared out of my mind to. I’m the girl who fell in love with u and wanted to tell u this weekend. But I’m also the girl that gets side stepped when you are in a shit mood when I feel you think u have me, so why try anymore. I get snapped at and told my accents and voices are annoying. I touch your neck to show u I care, you tell me to stop. Stop chewing gum. Do this, don’t do that. Your impression of something innocent blown out of proportion . . . f***** up a special day for me. I’m sorry if you truly felt I was hitting on my friend Sam’s husband and I’m sorry that u think that little of me. From the outside I think it looks like we are a struggle and maybe that’s what we are. I just want to love and be loved. Be happy and make someone SO happy. Maybe we can’t do that for each other. Cos right now I know u aren’t happy and I am certainly very unhappy and sad.
Pistorius: I want to talk to you, I want to sort this out. I don’t want to have anything less than amazing for you and I’m sorry for the things I say without thinking and for taking offence to some of your actions. The fact that I’m tired and sick isn’t an excuse. I was upset that you just left me after we got food to go talk to a guy and I was standing right behind you watching you touch his arm and ignore me . . . when I left you just kept on chatting to him when clearly I was upset . . . When we left I was starving. The only food I’d had was a tiny wrap and everyone was leaving for lunch. I’m sorry I wanted to go but I was hungry and upset, and although you knew, it wasn’t like you came to chat to me when I left the table. I was upset when I left you cause I thought you were coming to me. I’m sorry I asked you to stop tapping my neck yesterday. I know you were just trying to show me love . . . I had a mad headache and should’ve just spoken to you softly. I’m sorry for asking you not to put on an
accent last night. February 7
Steenkamp: I like to believe that I make u proud when I attend these kinds of functions with u. I present myself well and can converse with others whilst u are off busy chatting to fans/friends. I also knew people there tonight, and whilst u were having one or 2 pics taken I was saying goodbye to people in my industry . . . I completely understood your desperation to leave and thought I would be helping u by getting to the exit before u because I can’t rush in the heels I was wearing. I thought it would make a difference in us getting out without u being harassed. I didn’t think you would criticise me for doing that, especially not so loudly so that others could hear. I might . . . be all tomboyish at times but I regard myself as a lady and I didn’t feel like one tonight after the way u treated me when we left. I’m a person too and I appreciate that u invited me out tonight and I realise that u get harassed but I am trying my best to make u happy and I feel as tho u sometimes never are, no matter the effort I put in. I can’t be attacked by outsiders for dating u AND be attacked by you, the one person I deserve protection from. THE LOVE: January 9 Steenkamp: You are a very special person. U deserve to be looked after.
Pistorius: Will you please let me know you safe.
Steenkamp: I’m home boo. February 4 Steenkamp: If u want to go chill with M, that’s OK angel.
Pistorius: No, I want to chill with you. I miss you.
Steenkamp: I miss you too. February 11 Pistorius: I miss you 1 more than you always.
Steenkamp: Impossible.